Ducky's WanderLand

我

2010-03-25T18:56:00.000+08:00

哈哈。。天啊！！！

难以置信。。。我竟然不小心地把全部人对我的印象都颠倒了！！！

搞笑！！！

我是个怎样的人?? 重要么？

不重要。。。重要的是我选择用什么样的方式面对你。。。

可能我的方式不对，但不要认为我没有用心。。。

我对于大家的方式取决于大家给我怎样的感觉。。。

是任性，是无知，是狂野，是霸道，是不成熟。。。

我不反对，

至少我证明了自己不是神仙，

至少我不会是你们心中永远的好好先生，

至少我曾经坏过、颓废过、无理取闹过

至少我告诉了自己我不是样样都行，我不是无所不能

至少我曾经享受被人讨厌、被人害怕的感觉，过程

至少我知道孤独、寂寞那种寒冷冰冻的感觉

至少我知道我的存在对于身边的人还有些些的价值

至少我现在知道自己颓够了，是时候认真了。。。

知道吗？

我竟然发现我颓下来，导因竟然是来自身边所有重要的人

身边的种种负面的事情，人和物

加上自己再次又再次受到挫折

当然怪猪、怪狗、怪猫

都只能怪自己不够坚强

为什么一直都想要别人去谅解你？？？

玩够了，颓够了

记得吗？

不要去想，只要狠狠地做下去

如果你不知道自己为什么而活的话，
那就为身边的人而活。。。。。。

生命是如此的奇妙，
想要知道明天的命运，
只有好好的活着今天，
只要活着就有希望。

所以，

我不再需要你们怜悯的目光
我不再需要你们善心的双手
我不再需要你们好听的话语

我，

再也觉得没有必要让别人的谅解、同情

我，

颓够了

第一次的发现

2010-01-16T22:23:00.001+08:00

以前的我总以为自己很洒脱，很自在，很开心，很多朋友。。。
回来半年，一个别人都觉得适合我的地方，一个我成长的地方，我觉得很陌生。。。陌生得令我害怕、恐惧，是我变了，还是整个地方都在变，抑或是两者都在变？？

而我终于也发现自己真的很孤寂。。。不只是孤单。。。

孤寂，
不是因为身边没有家人
不是因为身边没有朋友
不是因为没有听你倾诉
不是因为没有让你诉苦
不是因为有难没人帮你

而是，
因为家人不了解你
因为朋友不明白你
因为你诉苦没人听得懂
因为你觉得诉苦也在浪费别人的时间

孤单、寂寞，
确实很可怕，你
完全失去目标
完全失去奋斗方向

考试拿零分和满分的感觉居然没有分别
煮菜究竟放盐、还是放糖已经不再重要
放进口中的食物，究竟是什么味道也没关系了
只要我还在呼吸，那就行了

过往的发泄方式：狂睡，狂吃，
完全不在管用，
因为你已经开始失眠，厌食

你不开心的时候
不可以不笑
因为你会让其他人担心
他们要担心你，但却从来不明白你
转个身就要怪这个，怪那个
所以到最后，面对你最亲的人
你也要强颜欢笑
带着一幅假面具
就连吃饭、睡觉都得自己骗自己

就连自己认为很重视自己的人。。。
也许她真的很重视你
但都是收到心底深处
只有当你有事的时候才有权利得到她的关心
其他的时候，可能自己都不在名单上
自己想关心她，却害怕烦着她，却害怕自己的不足
这样的我，不失败吗？

有时真的觉得自己总是一个多余出来的
你讲的话，做的事情。。。
可能有时候，甚至呼吸都觉得多余。。。

你们本来都不怎么在乎我
为什么在我那么彷徨的时候，你还要我对着你笑
就一定要每一天对着别人笑，部落格都在写开心的
才代表你是开心的吗？？
网际网络的虚无缥缈、虚假，还不够吗？？
为什么就连对这一部机器我都没有权力卸下我的面具...

而这样孤寂的感觉，
这种想让脑袋永恒放空的感觉，
（你不能说放弃，因为没有人允许你这么说）
你又了解多少？

黄佛海

2009-11-24T00:03:00.002+08:00

第一次发现，原来黄佛海是个笨蛋。。。
原来这个笑话，还真是满好笑的。。。

Sometimes...

2009-11-20T16:49:00.001+08:00

I do understand sometimes things dont work out as what we always hope or anticipated for...
Am I really that demanding...that obsessive....?
or may be I'm just thinking too much....?

No matter what, I dont feel right but just tired at the moment,
I think it's not supposed the feeling, that's why it feels so not right to me...
Something is wrong out there, I can sense it but just cant tell what it is...

Please please please bare with me if I appear rude in front of you...
I just dont feel right at the moment, and
as I said nothing works out for me if I dont feel right....

It's just not right now....

2012

2009-11-20T16:24:00.000+08:00

There is something I found on one of the forum talking about year 2012, which I found was interesting, to believe it or not, it's really entire up to yourself...here is the article:

灾难大片《2012》上周末上映之后，在北美以6500万美元的票房登顶，在国内直逼国庆票房冠军《建国大业》。片中逼真的特效和看似有凭有据的分析，令不少观众担忧电影中的“世界末日”会真的出现。对此，专家劝告说，不要把虚构的电影和科学混为一谈。

　　玛雅预言被误读

　　影片一开始就将故事置于玛雅人将2012年12月21日作为日历终结的基础上，这本身是一个误读。玛雅历法并没有结束于2012年，美国科尔盖特大学考古天文学家、玛雅文化专家安东尼·阿维尼表示：“在玛雅历法中，1872000天算是一个轮回，即5125.37年。”玛雅人的“长历法”从玛雅文化的起源时间开始算，即公元前3114年8月11日。根据“长历法”，到2012年冬至时，意味着当前时代的时间结束，长历法于是将重新从“零天”计算，又开始一个新的轮回。美国作家劳伦斯·约瑟夫提醒民众，玛雅人确实把2012年看作一个巨大的转折点，但这个转折点不是指世界的末日，而是指“第五个太阳纪”的到来。

　　天文现象不稀奇

　　在影片中出现了太阳居银河系中央，所有星体排成一直线的所谓天体重叠的现象，许多人担心这将让地球处于更为强大的未知宇宙力量的牵引之下，加速毁灭。美国宇航局科学家大卫·莫里森坚决否认了这种说法：“2012年绝对不会出现这种可怕的‘天体重叠’现象，或者说只会出现一些正常的天体现象。比如每年冬至时，从地球上看太阳，太阳就像是处于银河系的中央。这种现象毫无特别之处。它不会造成地球引力、太阳辐射、行星轨道等事物的变化，也不会对地球上的生命造成任何影响。”

　　太阳风暴有周期

　　《2012》中灾难的起源是太阳耀斑活动异常，造成地心高温，诱发火山频繁爆发。实际上，太阳耀斑是有规律可循的，其爆发周期大约为11年。剧烈的太阳耀斑可能会破坏地球上的通讯以及其他一些事物，但释放出强大的太阳风暴烤焦整个地球却是无稽之谈。下一次太阳风暴高潮将出现在2012-2014年，科学家们预测它将与历次太阳风暴一样，不会对地球有什么“特别的危害”。

　　磁极变化是常态

　　电影中，最终地球两极倒转，地球外壳和表面分离，地心内部的岩浆喷涌而出，造成无数人死亡。美国普林斯顿大学地质学家亚当姆·马尔卢夫认为，岩石中的某些磁性迹象表明，地球的磁场变化是一个持续数百万年的缓慢过程，以至于人类根本感觉不到。地球上的大陆板块虽然一直在缓慢移动着，但这跟“极地倒转”没有任何关系。平均每40万年地球确实会发生一次“磁极倒转”，这种现象不会对任何生物造成伤害，何况接下来的几千年里也不可能发生“磁极倒转”。中科院紫金山天文台研究员王思潮说，在最近的几百万年时间里，地球的磁极已经发生过多次颠倒，但没有给地球带来过灭绝性的灾难

Happy B'day to you!!!

2009-11-16T21:09:00.003+08:00

So much things I wanna ask, I wanna tell you...if there is a chance, I am not gonna sing B'day song to you but this song:

This was a song that I learned during my high school time in a music lesson, not only we were taught the lyrics but also how to dance for it, it embeded into part of my memory which I would never ever lose...That was the first time we were asked to get a oppsite sex partner for the dance, that was the first time I actually physically and mentally feel how great it would be getting my the other half for my life...

8 years ago, this feeling resurfaced when first met you, it became more and more stronger...until today it never ceases away...so it reminds me again about this lovely song, if there is a chance, I wanna sing it for you and just you...

This is the song (mandarin):

第一支舞
The first dance

作詞：葉佳修　作曲：葉佳修　演唱：周秉鈞&楊海薇

(女)
(Female)

帶著笑容　你走向我　做個邀請的動作
With a sweet smile, you walk to me and requested for a partner

我不知道應該說什麼　只覺雙腳在發抖
I dont know what to respond but my legs are shaking

音樂正悠揚人婆娑　我卻只覺臉兒紅透
Although people are dancing with beautiful melody playing,
I can only feel my blushing face

隨著不斷加快的心跳　踩著沒有節奏的節奏
With the increasing heart beat,
my feet no longer follow the rythym of the melody

(男)
(Male)

鼓起勇氣低下頭　卻又不敢對你說
I plump up my bravery yet have enough courage to tell you

曾經見過的女孩中　你是最美的一個
You are the prettiest girl I have ever met in my life

(合唱)
(Together)

要是能就這樣挽著你手　從現在開始到最後一首
If we can hold arm-in-arm to dance from the first to last bit

只要不嫌我舞步笨拙　你是唯一的選擇
and if you dont mind my clumsiness, you will be my only partner.

* Repeat

*帶著笑容　你走向我　做個邀請的動作

我不知道應該說什麼　只覺雙腳在發抖

音樂正悠揚人婆娑　我卻只覺臉兒紅透

隨著不斷加快的心跳　踩著沒有節奏的節奏

鼓起勇氣低下頭　卻又不敢對你說

曾經見過的女孩中　你是最美的一個

要是能就這樣挽著你手　從現在開始到最後一首

只要不嫌我舞步笨拙　你是唯一的選擇

要是能就這樣挽著你手　從現在開始到最後一首

只要不嫌我舞步笨拙　你是唯一的選擇

要是能就這樣挽著你手　從現在開始到最後一首

只要不嫌我舞步笨拙　你是唯一的選擇

要是能就這樣挽著你手　從現在開始到最後一首

只要不嫌我舞步笨拙　你是唯一的選擇

要是能就這樣挽著你手　從現在開始到最後一首

只要不嫌我舞步笨拙　你是唯一的選擇*

P/S: On this special day, I really hope all your wishes come true and happy always =) and of course I really do hope you will get my message here too...

This is the link to download the song:
http://yao.club.kmu.edu.tw/...first2.mp3

继续唱！！

2009-11-04T19:42:00.000+08:00

虽然每天的生活中都有开心和不开心的事、如意和不如意的事，但最近我的平均心情都属于优等级的，一切的都还好啦，过得不错，糟糕的事也不太过分糟糕，所以今天很想再唱一唱，向大家介绍另一手好歌（至少我认为啦），也算是上了年纪的歌，就是：

黄舒骏的“恋爱症候群”

顺便向问候一下大家：最近都过得好吗？我祝福大家都幸福 =)

词、曲:黄舒骏

关于恋爱症候群的发生原因至今仍然是最大的一个谜

不管性别年龄职业体重学历长相和血型没有一个人可以免疫

有些专家学者研究后相信恋爱是内分泌失调所引起

却有别人认为恋爱属于滤过性簿象感冒无药可救但会自动痊愈

不管你同不同意自古到今许多例子证明

恋爱不但是一种病态它还可能是一种变态

一般发病后的初期反应会开始改变一些生活习性

洗澡洗得特别干净刷牙刷得特别用力半夜突然爬起来弹钢琴

有人每天站在阳台对路人傻笑有人突然疯疯癫癫突然很安静

有人一脸痴呆对着镜子咬着指甲打喷嚏有人对小狗骂三字经

女人突然改变发型男人开始每天练着哑铃

食欲不振歇斯底里四肢萎缩神经过敏发抖抽筋都出现在这时期

随着病情越来越变本加厉人会变得格外敏感勇敢和恶心

写的说的唱的都象天才诗人一般才华洋溢越肉麻越觉得有趣

有人恋爱之后每天躲在厕所哭泣有人开记者会宣布恋爱的消息

有人总是喜欢两个人躲在黑漆漆的地方象做了不可告人的事情

每天忙着找人算命挖空心思改变自己配合对方的习性

把每天都当作纪念日把自己当作纪念品

每天漫无目的腻在一起言不及义也觉得好有趣

走着坐着躺着趴着都形影不离象是两人三脚又象连体婴

心里想的只有爱你爱你爱你爱你也不管家里米缸有没有米

也不管路上有人示威抗议只管爱你

心里想的只有爱你爱你爱你爱你也不管海峡两岸统一问题

也不管伊索匹亚多少难民只管爱你

经过一段轰轰烈烈热恋时期不久就会开始渐渐痊愈

两人开始互相厌倦互相攻击对方缺点所有甜蜜都随风而去

然后开始从错觉和误解中清醒惊讶自己为何如此不聪明

为了爱情不管一切不顾父母朋友姐妹兄弟开始感到后悔不已

然后开始感到疲惫沉闷气喘心悸牙痛头痛梦呓

然后是精神不济瞳孔放大脾气暴躁四肢麻痹终于受不了要分离

虽然结果颇令人伤心了解之后也没什么了不起

爱情终究是握不住的云只是我想要告诉你

哦……

在我落寞的岁月里你的温柔解脱我的孤寂

带给我深深的狂喜如此颤动着我的心灵

轻轻诉说爱你爱你爱你爱你不管是黑夜或是黎明

不管是梦中或是清醒深深爱你

我要对你说爱你爱你爱你爱你不管是黑夜或是黎明

不管是梦中或是清醒深深爱你

多么幸福让我遇见你呜……

听后感：

听了那么多动听的歌，真让我有些冲动想自己尝试创作自己的歌曲，不过真怀疑自己有没有这个能耐。。。。嗯。。。。

执著。坚持

2009-11-02T22:44:00.001+08:00

出处：百度百科

陈伟联1981年10月5日出生于新加坡，2005年9月1日从4000人中的比赛《绝对SuperStar! 》脱颖而出的总冠军，成为新加坡家喻户晓的第一位“盲人歌手”。2006年1月在新加坡发行首张个人专辑《我只是想要》，在短短五天内的销售，就已经突破白金唱片销售量！发片后的三个月即举办首场大型个人的售票演唱会，因此也造就了新加坡乐坛史无前例的奇迹！

因为和普通的人不同，看不见的双眼，令他不能做一般正常人的工作，所以在参加比赛前，伟联曾经是新加坡的主要巴士转换站，和四马路观音庙前的“街头表演艺人”，他的歌声，抚慰着熙来攘往人们的寂寞心灵，听他唱过歌的人说“纵使拖着疲累的身体，但听到伟联的歌声，就能纾解和释放一天的压力”能弹吉他弹钢琴，自弹自唱也难不倒用心的伟联，但他更擅长的是，演唱一首首感人肺腑的抒情歌曲，陈伟联的歌声，确实能带来抚慰人心的感动…盲人，也许在一般人的想象中，能做的事是很局限，但陈伟联因为他的积极与开朗，让他在新加坡的乐坛中有“盲侠”的称号，也令他成为2005年新加坡残障意识公民教育大使与青年领袖，他热情的鼓励青年与其它像他一样的残障人士追求梦想，也积极的参与各种慈善与社区活动，用他坚韧不拔的精神，来告诉大家，不要因为自己某部份的残缺，而将自己封锁，更鼓励身心健全的青年要更爱惜自己，勇于追求属于自己的梦想，有一天也会像他一样，让自己的美梦成真。

新加坡首位盲人歌手陈伟联，2007年首张个人国语专辑《i伟联》。伟联纯净的好声音，带你一同进入他奇迹般的歌声。现在，蒙上你的双眼，让你的耳朵打开你的心，用你的心来感受他真诚声音下所带来的好音乐。他的坚持，令他不顾盲目的勇于追求他的理想，他的真心，为他在一次一次的挑战中赢得胜利，他的歌声，带来幸福像温暖阳光般包围你的心。只想做个“普通的人”但却又不仅仅是个“普通的人”。对歌唱，也许他的外貌平凡的像个普通的人，但是他的歌声，却能轻易的进入你尘封已久的心。对生活，也许他的言语朴实的像个普通的人，但是他的热情，却能令你感受人生是充满了希望。对爱情，也许他从未轰轰烈烈的谈一场恋爱像个普通的人，但是他的真心，却能一直保有一份对爱的期待。对自己，也许他不能分辨颜色、感受阳光像个普通的人，但是他的努力和坚持却能让他的梦想发光发亮。

永远的朋友

作词:邬裕康作曲:陈伟联

如果你很忙

我到街上去晃一晃

身为一个朋友

有些事情不该勉强

看你黑着眼圈

今晚很长我睡不着

到底是谁害你这么想

因为太爱你

拼命达到你的需要

虽然只是朋友

总比什么都不是好

借你肩膀依靠

借你关心也借你微笑

我很想给你却不要

爱着你却伤心的只能守候不能拥有

真挚的做一个永远的朋友

看着你旧旧的简讯内容

我看见爱情向我大声嘲弄

爱着你却大方的陪你恋爱替你加油

虚弱的做一个永远的朋友

几次累的想断绝联络

却听见你说情人比不上朋友

我总是有让你想出声的方法

我却没有让自己离开的力量

也许友情才能地久天长

我只是朋友

I Love you

i love you

所以只能说声对不起

任何藉口都没有

i love you

已来不及好好去珍惜

后悔很多

不该让你无辜流下失措的泪

心碎认识你陌生的世界

空气中回荡的笑语早已经断绝

多想能在和你梦里爱多一次

很沉重看你走着每一步

它应该是幸福的路

狠心推开你

像你离得无反顾

你身上纹着我给你的笑

对我绝美的惩罚

想问已无法

原来曾经拥有过

还比失去痛苦

i love you

对你的挚爱从不曾改变

要你快乐

i love you

好想对你说却来不及

后悔已太多

不该让你无辜流下失措的泪

心碎认识你陌生的世界

空气中回荡的笑语早已经断绝

多想能在和你梦里爱多一次

很沉重看你走着每一步

它应该是幸福的路

狠心推开你

是挽不回的错误

你心上纹着我给你的笑

对我绝美的惩罚

想问我无法

原来曾经拥有过

远比失去痛苦

我身上永远烙着你的笑

那么绝美的惩罚

想问我无法

原来曾经拥有过

还比失去痛苦

听后感：

这两首都是我相当喜欢的歌曲，可能是他的歌声牵动着旋律正敲打着我的心坎，勾起了我的回忆，唱出了我的心声，打动了我的心坎，眼泪差点就溢出了框框。。。有时在回想，我究竟是在执著，还是在坚持？你可以告诉我吗。。。如果你愿意的话。。。

Everyone gets old!!!

2009-10-30T22:13:00.001+08:00

Just received an email from a friend not long ago, it's funny,cute and somehow made me ponder...ever think of these fellas below will get old too? If they do, probably they should appear like this...

Remember those girls' favourite while they were once kids...
Barbie Doll?? What if I tell you if she is having her 50th birthday this year?!

Following this was once my childhood favourite, but really couldnt imagine if you tell me that it's 60 years old this year...

and not to forget our well-known favourite childhood hero, Superman (you think I should called him Superuncle now?? lol)

How about Thor....?

and Wonderwoman (touch of menopause here, I think?)

The ones I once thought were very cool.....but now......(Batman & Robin)

now still..cute la...

and last but not least...Mr. Spidey....

compared to others, he is rather poor thing...

Quotation of the day:

"Life is short, forgive sooner, love with true love, laugh and always keep smiling.

Maybe life is not the party that we were expecting, but in the mean time, we're here and we can still dance....."

记号 -- 完整版

2009-10-28T22:43:00.249+08:00

如何在一个陌生的城市留下记号，爱一个人还是留张照片

回顾上一次的《记号》，也至少是十月前的文章了。。。十个月，不短不长，我的人生却出现了很多的转折，很多的人事变迁，很多开心，不开心的，而我也从塔斯马尼亚岛一个鸟不生蛋的城市，朗塞斯顿，回到来这个我觉得连喘气都觉得氧气不足的城市，吉隆坡。。。是好？是坏？天晓得。。。

想当年(四年前)，我还是血气方刚，锐气十足的小伙子，随同三名同伴怀着远大抱负，来到一个从未涉足的“穷乡僻壤”想要好好在这一个陌生城市重新开始、大展拳脚，让这一大土地上有着我们最漂亮的足迹、记号。这四年，我们很努力、很用心地学习，做好本分，更曾雄心壮志想在这片我们认为的荒野，打出自己的一片天地。当然，我们也不是蛮牛般地埋头苦干，每当有假日的时候，大家都会很雀跃的四处游走，留下足迹、留下照片与回忆。。。

打拼的日子辛苦、难熬，虽说有另三名同行伙伴，其实也各有各精彩，有时候想找个真正能听你倾诉的人真的不容易，所以这个比大城市物资匮乏，缺乏娱乐消遣的小岛上，垂钓变成年轻人唯一一个最廉宜的消遣活动，而谈左邻右里的是是非非更是饭后最简单的娱乐。人或多或少都会有偷窥的欲望，而常常在流传在同学与同学之间最广的饭后话题，就是分手，复合，出墙，脚踏两船等等，而故事的主人翁当然就是围绕着不同的学生圈转、转、转。。。

还好自己当时是孤家寡人，在情感上也都比较低调处理，所以都算比较少是非，但身边的两女一男同伴的故事对我来说就精彩多了。两名女生本来都有自己固定的男友，其中一名我们称他为A君，你说她是不甘寂寞也好、受不了身边的诱惑也罢，男友不在身边，自己的思维一个偏差就让自己调进了爱情两难的漩涡当中，还好当时男友及时现身，老远从地球的一端飞到地球的另一端来挽救，这匹马才不至于从悬崖上落下。。。另一名同伴叫B君吧，本来也有个男友，也就在飞到了这个陌生的城市顺便把男友给飞了，顺势地在这个城市找过另一个男友，另起炉灶。。。至于另一个男性同伴的故事就更经典了，C君吧，我称他，从到这个城市开始，就听说他喜欢上不同的女生，可能是没有女友的关系吧，这样也许无可厚非，但有一次他竟然认为我们俩同时间在“争”一个女生，也听说我出卖他，而导致最后连朋友也做不成。。。

因为上面的这三则故事都是听回来的，所以真实性有待考察。。。但我想说的是，在同一个时间，四个不同的人，来到同一个陌生的城市，不管他们是同时被多人爱上，还是同时爱上不同的人，他们都同时间的爱与被爱了。而我，可能始终都找不到自己的真命天女，就决定把自己的爱散播到身边每一个人的身上，这可不是人家说的分散投资，而是希望每个人需要我的时候，我都可以为他们献上一份力。。。

虽然就如我上一篇《记号》所写的，“如何在一个陌生的城市留下记号，爱一个人还是留张照片”，当初我还以为这句话狗屁不通，但原来这就是人的一个共同点，来到一个陌生的城市，就会不期然的要为自己在这个城市留下记号，而且还会不期然地选择了爱上一个人和拍照片来做记号，可能这也是动物的一个最好的特征？这一次当我回来吉隆坡，反倒是这个阔别了四年的城市，对我来说却也变成了另一个陌生的城市。。。

所以这一次，要是你再问我同一个问题，今天我会告诉你，在一个陌生的城市，我会很努力的让每一个人都爱上这么的一个我，然后我会很努力很努力的和每一个人都照上一张照片，然后再把照片留给每一个人。。。如果你要我解释的话，我会告诉你，要给自己在这个城市最好的记号，不是去爱一个人，不是去拍上一系列的照片，而是让城里每一个人都记得你，让城市的每一个角落都有你的印记，因为不管你对一个人的誓言是天长地久还是海枯石烂，一样是经不起时间的磨蹭；不管多少照片唤起的回忆，也经不起岁月的摧残。。。而我所要在这陌生城市为自己的记号，也是我之前在《记号》所写的：

“我只想静静地穿越这个城市，让我的足迹留在我走过的每一寸土地，好让风能带着它一起消逝在空中，让空气中的每个颗粒都能感受到我步伐的沉重，让这个城市都能弥漫着这些颗粒，这就是我的记号。。。”

“让每一个人都曾经感受过我来过的气息，让每一寸土地都有我的印记、有我的贡献、有我的爱。。。”

幸福。就好

2009-10-13T15:13:00.004+08:00

无论是在我彷徨无助还是开心的时候，

总有一个很特别的人送上的一份很特别的关怀与祝福

所以我已不会去强求太多，因为我知道

我已经很幸福了，谢谢你！！！

游戏人间

2009-10-11T16:11:00.006+08:00

朋友问我为什么要放《游戏人间》在facebook的status上，其实这纯粹是突然想起一首老歌，一首蛮有意思的老歌，但我相信很多人都没听过（这意味着我够老 =P）。最近听到了很多朋友，亲人逝世的消息，虽然有些感伤，但反而是感触更多，想想人们常说：人生如戏，戏如人生，很多人都是懵懵懂懂的来到这世上，然后过了几十载后，再匆匆忙忙的离开，上演着一段又一段的长篇连续剧。不管结局是否美满，是否令人满意都得结束，导演不可以喊“卡”，没有重来，没有“NG”镜头，没有替身，所以我觉得自己的想法可能和写这首歌的人的想法很相像，那就是：

当人生有无奈的事情发生时，我只有敞开胸怀欣然接受
当人生跌入谷底时，我允许自己短暂颓废但一定会再站起来
当我在装疯卖傻的时候，我有我的理由所以请不要看小我
世上没有一样东西是永恒的，我只能把自己最好的那面呈现出来
人生短短数来载无需执著，我只想痛痛快快，潇潇洒洒地走一回

以下的就是这首歌：

郑智化（1961年11月14日－）天蝎座，中国台湾歌手，台湾省台北市人。3岁时患小儿麻痹症，导致下肢残疾。代表作《水手》，《星星点灯》，因其中包含的励志精神，在上世纪90年代初广受欢迎。1999年1月结婚后，淡出音乐圈，投身IT行业,2007年正式复出。

其实还有很多这位歌手的歌都不错，就像这里写到的代表作《水手》，《星星点灯》，都是我本身相当喜欢的歌，里头的词都很有意思，我本身觉得很励志，很值得分享。。。

游戏人间——郑智化

专辑:游戏人间
曲:郑智化
词:郑智化

世界太啰嗦不分对或错
像我这的老百姓谁会在乎我
有钱的当老大没钱的难过活
就算是看不惯我又能如何

爱人离开我不说为什么
伤心难过的时候我学会了喝酒
每次我都喝醉但从来不犯错
明天酒醒以后我依然是我

笑容太甜泪水太咸
山盟海誓到了最后难免会变
烦恼太多未来太远
何不陪我一起放荡游戏人间

日子怎么过快乐不快乐
像这种无聊的问题你不要问我
该来的会来该走的会走
反正都是没把握不必太强求

我有我的痛我有我的梦
装疯卖傻的时候你不要笑我
也许有一天你我再相逢
睁开眼睛看清楚我才是英雄

笑容太甜泪水太咸
山盟海誓到了最后难免会变
烦恼太多未来太远
何不陪我一起放荡游戏人间

酸甜苦辣尝过人情冷暖看破
江湖的路上我身不由己
是是非非抛开恩恩怨怨不再
自由自在我浪迹天涯

笑容太甜泪水太咸
山盟海誓到了最后难免会变
烦恼太多未来太远
何不陪我一起放荡游戏人间

笑容太甜泪水太咸
山盟海誓到了最后难免会变
烦恼太多未来太远
何不陪我一起放荡游戏人间

顺便送上几首刚提到的歌：

水手：

星星点灯：

Revived!!!

2009-10-08T20:33:00.005+08:00

I still remember I used to come here very very often, especially when I was happy, when I was upset, I came here to shout out how happy I was, I came here to cry out how sad I was......but it was "abandoned" untidy for more than half a year...I think it's about time to pick it up again, I have a lot and lot of stories of mine to write and share, think ducky is gonna continue shouting here and there again...recently came across with this meaningful article, so I will use this article to refresh my blog here, hope can cause abit of resonance there....and I promise here the article "记号" is gonna be out in either one of the next 3 post, dont worry I always keep my promises!! Oh ya, just before forgetting, many thanks to pisces for sharing this article =)

So, here is the article:

不要错放了幸福温暖的手

往往许多人在抉择伴侣时，容易东想西想，不知所措，就是因为害怕一时做错决定，看错人，造成终生的遗憾。

诺贝尔文学奖得主萧伯纳说：“此时此刻在地球上，约有两万个人适合当你的人生伴侣，就看你先遇到哪一个，如果在第二个理想伴侣出现之前，你已经跟前一个人发展出相知相惜、互相信赖的深层关系，那后者就会变成你的好朋友，但是若你跟前一个人没有培养出深层关系，感情就容易动摇、变心，直到你与这些理想伴侣候选人的其中一位拥有稳固的深情，才是幸福的开始，漂泊的结束。爱上一个人不需要靠努力，只需要靠“际遇”，是上天的安排，但是“持续地爱一个人”就要靠“努力”，在爱情的经营中，顺畅运转的要素就是沟通、体谅、包容与自制 (面临诱惑有所自制)。有许多人总是被“际遇”所迷惑与苦恼，意念不停、欲念不断、争逐不散，而忘了培养经营感情的能力才是幸福的关键。

所以不要去追问到底谁才是我的Mr.Right，而是应该问说在眼前的伴侣关系中，我能努力到什么程度、成长到什么程度，若没有培养出经营幸福的能力，就算真的Mr.Right出现在你身边，幸福依然会错过的，而活在犹疑与遗憾当中，这不就是许多“爱情虚无症”的遭遇与心态吗？若你此刻已有一位长久相伴的伴侣，不要再随便三心二意地犹疑了，我们往往不易察觉感情中的一个陷阱，就是“近亲生慢侮”，也就是经济学中的铁律“边际效益递减法则”，跟你在一起越久的人，就越容易麻木与忽视，而新鲜的“际遇”总是那么动人可爱。

在感情对待中，难免有摩擦与无心的伤害，而且论得罪自己的次数累加起来最多的人，当然是跟我们在一起最久、最亲近的人。而新欢呢，又还没开始有得罪你的机会，再加上他的刻意讨好，所以新欢怎么看怎么可爱，旧爱怎么看怎么讨厌。但别忘了，新欢身上总是有不确定的未知数，旧爱身上就是有难得的熟悉感、确定感、信赖感。千万不要随便在偶然的“际遇”中迷失了自己，错放了幸福温暖的手。所以萧伯纳的话，是要提醒情人不要太钻牛角尖于寻觅那唯一，应该把精神用在学会经营幸福的能力上，同时也提醒我们“弱水三千只取一瓢饮”若有幸遇到了难得的伴侣，就不要再三心二意了，因为我们永远不知道一生何时会遇到两万个其中的几个，所以要知福惜福、活在当下。

I dont agree with all the points in this article but at least I think it is meaningful especially those that highlighted by myself....

My Recent Favourite

2009-02-13T08:16:00.001+08:00

I made this video playlist at myflashfetish.com

Slow Dance

2009-02-07T20:43:00.001+08:00

This is a poem written by a teenager with cancer.
She wants to see how many people get her poem
It is quite the poem.

This poem was written by a terminally ill young girl in a New York Hospital.

It! was sent by a medical doctor - Make sure to read what is in the closing statement AFTER THE POEM.

SLOW DANCE

Have you ever watched kids

On a merry-go-round?

Or listened to the rain

Slapping on the ground?

Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?

Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?

You better slow down.

Don't dance so fast.

Time is short.

The music won't last.

Do you run through each day

On the fly?

When you ask How are you?

Do you hear the reply?

When the day is done

!

Do you lie in your bed

With the next hundred chores

Running through your head?

You'd better slow down

Don't dance so fast.

Time is short.

The music won't last.

Ever told your child,

We'll do it tomorrow?

And in your haste,

Not see his sorrow?

Ever lost touch,

Let a good friendship die

Cause you never had time

To call and say,'Hi'

You'd better slow down.

Don't dance so fast.

Time is short.

The music won't last.

When you run so fast to get somewhere

You miss half the fun of getting there.

When you worry and hurry through your day,

It is like an unopened gift..

Thrown away.

Life is not a race.

Do take it slower

Hear the music

Before the song is over.

--------------------

FORWARDED E-MAILS ARE TRACKED TO OBTAIN THE TOTAL COUNT.

Dear All:

PLEASE pass this mail on to everyone you know - even to those you don't know! It is the request of a special girl who will soon leave this world due to cancer.

This young girl has 6 months left to live, and as her dying wish, she wanted to send a letter telling everyone to live their life to the fullest, since she never will.

She'll never make it to prom, graduate from high school, or get married and have a family of her own.

By you sending this to as many people as possible, you can give her and her family a little hope, because with every name that this is sent to, The American Cancer Society will donate 3 cents per name to her treatment and recovery plan.. One guy sent this to 500 people! So I know that we can at least send it to 5 or 6. It's not even your money, just your time!

PLEASE PASS ON AS A LAST REQUEST.

Dr. Dennis Shields, Professor
Department of Developmental and Molecular Biology
1300 Morris Park Avenue
Bronx, New York 10461

HOW...? Try it!

2009-01-28T22:43:00.004+08:00

如果被劫匪强制到ATM按钱。。。。该如何？

JUST SOME GOOD INFORMATION......

If you should ever be forced by a robber to withdraw money from an ATM machine, you can notify the police by entering your Pin # in reverse.

For example if your pin number is 1234 then you would put in 4321. The ATM recognizes that your pin number is backwards from the ATM card you placed in the machine..

The machine will still give you the money you requested, but unknown to the robber, the police will be immediately dispatched to help you. This information was recently broadcasted on TV and it states that it's seldom used because people don't know it exists...

Please pass this along to everyone possible.

如果有一天你面对劫匪要你到提款机提款，记得不要反抗，照他的指示，不过当你按你的密码时要从后面按起，如123456，你就按654321，提款机会照样出钱，可是劫匪万万想不到警方会立刻获得通知来协助你。

这个系统很少人用所以都被人们遗忘了。。。。

请传给你关心的人。。。。。

P/S: I dont know if it's gonna work, but is worth trying and let me know if it's working after you try....hahaha

春节

2009-01-26T10:08:00.006+08:00

公告：

为了迎接这个新年，我就把背景颜色改成红色，为期15天！！！

另外，在这里献上一首华乐曲

《春节序曲》，还有《年》的简介

希望大家喜欢，也祝大家过个大肥牛年，MOO~!!!

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

《春节序曲》
是中国著名作曲家、音乐理论家李焕之一首脍炙人口的作品，
这首乐曲采用我国民间的秧歌音调，
节奏与陕北民歌为素材创作的管弦乐曲。
乐曲的特点为旋律明快，优美富有民族风格，节奏鲜明热烈，
生动地体现了我国人民在传统节目里热闹沸腾，喜气洋洋，敲锣打鼓载歌载舞的情绪。

乐曲结构是带再现的复三部曲式，C宫调式。
从一个引子开始，
以两个具有对比性质的音乐主题组成了序曲的第一部分。
引子以强烈的节奏、力度的对比、旋律的起伏，提示了洋溢于全曲中的欢快情绪。

第一部分的第一主题明快粗犷，节奏不断紧缩，
表现了秧歌群舞的生动场面和热烈气氛。

第二主题活泼流畅，由长笛吹奏主旋律，
双簧管吹奏对位声部给予衬托，音乐表现了人们难以抑制的喜悦和激动心情。

中部主题旋律十分抒情优美，节奏舒展，速度徐缓，
与第一部分形成鲜明对比，
表现了人们在节日中相互亲切的祝福和问候，
也抒发了人们对幸福生活的赞美了对更美好的明天的憧憬。

在小号变奏了这个抒情主题后，将音乐引入了第三部分（再现部）。
在这里，火热的旋律，跳荡的节奏音型，表明更热烈的群舞又开始了。

引子和第一部分的主题音调在这里作部分重复和变化重复，
并加入了民族打击乐器，将音乐逐步推向高潮，
节日的欢腾景象和人们的喜庆心情被表现得淋漓尽致。

稿件来源：郯城县科学技术协会办公室供稿

Prosperous Chinese New year

2009-01-25T00:06:00.005+08:00

新年快乐！！！
农历新年到了，大家都很兴奋吧？
很可惜，今年不能和家人一起过年
没关系啦，无论如何希望大家

像我一样的游子，和我不一样可以和家人在一起过年的人，
大家都开开心心，过个快乐年！！！

刚看朋友作了个短片，我也用animoto来玩玩

人生跷跷板

2009-01-21T19:33:00.009+08:00

刚收到我大姐给我发的邮件，其中有一封转发邮件就是下面的一系列的简单照片加文字。。。

图画简单、文字浅白，但要表达的却是那么有深度的人生哲理
当我看到最后一个图画时，令我想起从前看《无间道》里面的一句：

一杖功成万骨枯

听到这句话，不知怎么的，每每都让我不寒而栗
回头想想，其实在我们生存的这个残酷现实社会的大前提下
有这一句话的出现一点也不足为奇
现实生活中把人踩在脚底下，爬上自己人生最高峰的例子也见惯不怪

现在自己想想，
你要找自己人生中的平衡点
还是要爬到人生中的最高点？

决定权永远在自己的手上
~共勉之~

夫复何求

2009-01-19T08:33:00.002+08:00

在我英雄年少时，有一个女生，她愿意为我失去生命--

她意志坚定地说：你再缠着我，我就去死……　　

在我负笈外地时，有一个女生，她愿意等我直到下辈子--

她柔婉约地说：你想成为我男朋友，下辈子吧……　　

在我穷困潦倒时，有一个女生，她愿意与我共赴黄泉--

她眼眶泛红地说：你再不还我钱，我就与你同归与尽……　　

唉！世间女子何其痴情，却依然无法使我驻足停留，

至今依然身影孤单，想来不胜谦虚……

2009

2009-01-01T10:22:00.002+08:00

Life is like having a cup of tea.
You sit by the side of the window, lift the cup and take a careless sip,
Only to realize, somebody forgot to put the sugar.
Too lazy to go for it you somehow struggle through the sugarless cup.
Until you discover un-dissolved sugar crystal sitting at the bottom...

---That's Life---

Success is not the key to happiness.
Happiness is the key to success.
If you love what you are doing, you will be happy and successful ...
Have a Successful
Year ahead!!! 2009

Blessing

2008-12-18T08:13:00.002+08:00

Recently it seems to me eveything is not done in the way it should be, things are not finished in the time it should be, nothing is happening that was expected...

What could I say more...it's the life anyway...

If everything comes out what it suppose to be, the pencil doesnt have to be designed with the eraser...

So my point is...there wont be anymore post from now on until the day when things get back on track, which I hope it would be not later than 23rd of January 2009...til then...

Good luck everyone and all the best ahead

记号

2008-11-01T22:11:00.007+08:00

如何在一个陌生的城市留下记号，爱一个人还是留张照片

这是最近我一个刚认识不久的朋友在msn上问我的一问题，她也把问题标在了自己的Nick旁边，当她把这个问题踢到我面前时，下意识的我还纳闷了一下：-.- 这是什么滥问题嘛，狗屁不通。。。

当然以我那么有绅士风度的性格，那么粗俗的回答肯定是不入格的，所以我换了一个比较委婉的方式来回应：

“你这个问题有点蹊跷哦。。。”

她当时就没理解我的意思，就加以追问：

“蹊跷？怎么说？”

结果我很技巧性的躲开了她的问题：

“为什么突然问这种问题？是从哪里听来的？（总不会要我回答说我觉得她的问题是狗屁不通吧？！）”

其实对我来说，乍看之下，这问题确实是狗屁不通，为什么呢？

理性分析：

要在一个陌生的城市留下记号？为什么要这么做呢？来到了一个陌生城市，要嘛，你就留；要不，你就走，就是这么简单，为什么要留什么记号？难道说你要在百千万年之后的人类文明和历史中有你的所谓的记号占一席之地，让你名垂千古么？或是说你看太多孙悟空，就连撒泡尿液也要像一些幼稚的小流氓在这陌生城市的一角写上：“XXX到此一游”的如此记号？为的就是要像人类最好的朋友那样，无时无刻去哪儿都留下自己芬芳的记号以展示自己的势力范围？？

问题的第二部分就更妙了，妙？不是巧妙，不是奇妙；而是莫名其妙！！

第一：最明显的就是，你竟然拿爱情与一张照片相提并论？？完全是风马牛不相及！！

第二：如果对你来说这是个陌生的城市，你可能就连一个人都不认识，怎么可能突然地去爱上一个人？？你要真的可以马上爱上一个人的话，你不是看得爱情小说太多，就是跟街边的小猫小狗没什么太大区别。。。

第三：那到底你要的是在这城市留下记号呢？还是要给自己的相簿留下记号？不然为什么要留下照片？？难道说你拍了照过后，要把照片贴在城市的某角落不成？？

第四：这也是整个问题的关键，因为这个问题让人感觉就是在问当你来到一个陌生的城市，你会留下什么或带走什么作为你以后对这城市的追忆，也就是说在问这个问题的前提是：你根本就不打算留在这城市，要是这样的话，为什么还要去爱别人，难道说你要在一段风花雪月过后拍拍屁股就走人？？你以为你是以前的中国皇帝，微服出城，然后到处留情吖？？你以为你就会被冠上风流倜傥，多情不羁这种滥名词吗？呸！在我眼中不过是一只烂情的孬种！!

好，综合以上的两大部分的分析，你说我能不说这个问题是狗屁不通么？？

她接着就说：

“哦，不是啦，这是我在杂志上看到的一句，觉得有趣，就拿给老板看，老板也蛮喜欢的，觉得可能可以写一篇专题。。。”

人物小介绍：

朋友：女性，东方日报记者，负责教育版面
朋友老板：男性，就是她的主任咯。。（只知道他应该不是同性恋）

其实当时迟钝的我还没意识到什么危机，然后这位朋友还是不放过我的再问：

“那你的答案是。。。？？”

因为当时心里还在纳闷：原来就是那种烂诗情画意的杂志找到的破点子，难怪我那么精确的理性分析一点也派不上用场。。。-.-

再加上心理的一点不忿：不行，虽知道感性在这问题上占了主场，我死活也至少要给她一个理性答案才不枉我花费在理性分析上的精神与时间。。。

“那你要的是理性还是感性的答案？”

“都要。。。”

我心里又是一阵不爽：想懒惰一下，只给理性的答案都不行。。 >_< “ 理性的答案是我会拍下照片”

“那感性的呢。。。？”

“感性的答案是我会努力的爱上一个人然后留下照片”

“喔，这个答案我已经听过了。。。”

天，这真的是一种万箭穿心的感觉。。。差点晕倒。。。

因为心里又是一阵的不忿，于是就把心一狠，将我那感性的一面搬了出来，是必要再给她挥出漂亮的一击：

“其实还有更感性的答案，那就是我不要爱人也不要照片。。。”

“噢？那你要什么啊。。？”，她再次追问

本来我心里是有些得意，想说再把我的答案转一转，那就可以把她使得晕头转向的，多好玩。。。但过后深思了一会儿，还是别了，这样做有缺公德，也不像我的作风，所以就在我字典里抽出了感性的一句：

“我只想静静地穿越这个城市，让我的足迹留在我走过的每一寸土地，好让风能带着它一起消逝在空中，让空气中的每个颗粒都能感受到我步伐的沉重，让这个城市都能弥漫着这些颗粒，这就是我的记号。。。”

我暗自的偷笑：想不到我这庸俗的人，在那么的一瞬间，还能写出一句微微带有徐志摩不带走一片云采味道的句子。。。

“哇！真的蛮感性的喔。。。”

当我还在为自己的小聪明再次暗地里高兴时。。。 ^_^
她突然又杀出了一句：

“要你对于这题目写一篇500个字的文章，行吗？”

我当时就想：这么一桶冷水泼来是想要揶揄我、小觑我的能力么？？
从来都那么好胜的我，会甘于示弱么？那当然是不可能的事，于是我就炫耀道：

“什么500个字？！就连5000个字都不是问题，想当初在中学的时候就得常写5000字的作文。。。”

没错，我是用了炫耀的语气，但我一点也没夸大其词，谁不知道独中生很多时候都要在那两节又烦又闷的华文课的时间内呕出那5000个字，结果也不知道是写作文的人悲哀，还是改作文的人悲哀。。。

哪知我这端还没炫耀完，她那头就非常机灵的再弹出一句：

“那你就以这题目写一篇文章吧，记得贡献给我哦，有你们的文章我就可以好好的写一篇专题了。。。”

“啊。。。”

我这时候才惊觉，我就像一只白老鼠正兴奋的咬着饵，突然看见笼子的门“嗒”一声迅速地关上时才发现自己原来已身在笼子里。。。这招实在是高明啊，好听的话叫抛砖引玉，其实根本就是设一个陷阱让我踩，不过听她这么说证明在笼子里的老鼠不止我一只，也让我有一些欣慰（至少有人陪 ^_^）。。。

但是不甘心的我还硬着头皮想尽办法的兜：

“噢，如果这个周末有时间的话我就写写看。。。”

“嗯，好啊，慢慢写。。。”

“慢慢写哦？那我可能会用上一个月的时间咯。。。”

“那也没关系啊，我还是可以将专题挪后一个月再写，现在你已经答应我了，不可以反悔咯。。。”

天哪，这一次我可真的是无言以对了 @_@
真有你的，好啦我终于升白旗了。。。

写就写，谁怕谁，就这么一篇文章没什么大不了的。。。再说一次题目来听听！！

如何在一个陌生的城市留下记号，爱一个人还是留张照片

啊，我竟然忘了，就是这个狗屁不通的烂题目。。。
而且重点是这种烂题目，我那么天资聪慧的理性分析却完全对它起不了作用。。。
惨惨惨。。。我的感性细胞却又是有限公司，现在该怎么办呢？早知道就不夸下海口啦。。。

p/s：想知道作者是否能够顺利完成任务？敬请留意下期刊登的文章咯！

备注：以上故事内容只有部分属实，故事主人翁需谅解，虚构部分纯粹为本人的任意创作，为的只是满足读者的阅读欲。所以冒犯之处，请多见谅。

Memories 2

2008-10-30T17:53:00.012+08:00

Ok, I am getting lazier and lazier on posting by the fact that something is making my life not as happy as ever before, but let me finish this memories entry first...

So last entry I was talking about how much you think you could treasure your friendship, love and etc...something that you cant really see and touch, but in this post what I am gonna talk about is something can be seen, touched which you might never realised how important they are in your daily life...

That's our own body!!!
Have you ever felt thankful that you have a healthy body
and you can still breathing everytime you wake up from
your warm warm bed???

Have you ever appreciated the food that presented in front of you
and have you ever imagined how much people would admire you
have the wealthy lives without worrying to earn money and
get the food???

Recently, as almost all Tassie friends know about it
I had a terrible fall
Well, it's an accident, you really wont be able to expect it
The outcome of the accident was

I trashed only one part of my body, my mouth

Trash means really terribly trash

I had very uneven grazed wound
on the part between my mouth and nose

I cracked one tooth and chiped a corner of it

Eventually I went hospital and had few stiches on it
and I had a most terrible week to eat in my life ever
because I couldnt even open my mouth as it swollen
like two sausages, even it can be opened,
I couldnt bite properly either....

So this was me, requested from one of my friends,
I took this photo four days after the accident
I should say it looked much better in the photo

By then, only I realised how important of each part of our body
being incorporation into one system and serves us well everyday

Being not able to eat properly, I took one week off from lab
and eating my porridge everyday (only one meal per day)

Yea, my friend was right, I admit I like the porridge that I cook
but eating that for a week really make me feel sick abit
so at the end of week....I started to crave for other dishes...
and yes I cooked others such as....

on the first day, I cooked
Deep fried mushrooms and fish fillets with fresh lettuce and carrot
with some fresh shallots on top and of course mayonese too ^^

On second day, because the first day the dish was so good,
I couldnt stop myself to cook another time....lol
But this time I ran out of mushroom, so I cooked fried egg instead
Well...worked the same on me....I love eggs too

On top of that, this time I added the something special in my rice,
that's why I took the photo...well, not gonna tell you the recipe
though it tasted good...haha....

I dont know why but that day I was in extreme good mood,
So, I made myself another thing
which is one cup of freshly hand-squished orange juice ^_^

So, this is the combination of all three...hehehe....

On the third day, I changed my menu...which is instant noodle!!
And who on earth said the instant noodle cannot be healthy and nice??!!
This is my instant noodle...I really cant resist that attraction..haha

And on forth day, I had something different again...
Thick gravy of stir-fried vege mix with rice...yum yum ^^

Although I had really tough time in eating in which
I almost swallowed each mouthful without having a good chew,
I still enjoy all my food pretty well....
And now I also realised how important of each part of our body
Even is just a small tooth.....

So, are you hungry now?
Get your ass off the chair and cook something good for yourself!!

p/s: Remember to treasure all food and for god sake dont waste food dont throw food and of course appreciate whatever you have!!

-- End of my memories --

Memories 1

2008-10-21T22:06:00.019+08:00

I have been thinking for the past few weeks...think what??
Thinking of what's the title for my next post since its gonna be my 100th post...
Sometimes it is important for me to come up with a good title so it can lead me
to write better and not out of topic =P

So today's title, Memory
It's been few weeks I dint update my blog which makes me realised one thing
Whatever the bygones were became your memory, part of your memory
Even it was one second ago
Wouldn't you be amazed how this thing works in this world??

Time, that is what I am talking about
How fast is one second? one tick?
How much could you treasure in this one TICK?
Treasure about what?
Anything, your family, frienship, love, health, wealth..etc

I have just done a small calculation here
To us, the smallest unit for time are
second, then minutes...years, decades and centuries
So, although you may say you cant feel that one TICK
You cant deny how powerful is this tick when they are in plural forms
Let's see

1 min = 60 ticks
1 hour = 3600 ticks
1 day = 86400 ticks
1 week = 604800 ticks
1 month = 2419200 ticks
1 year = 29030400 ticks
1 decade = 290304000 ticks
1 century = 2903040000 ticks

Okay, forget about how accurate my calculation was
But by just looking at the figures I showed above
You can tell how important these ticks are
One interesting thing is no matter how long it takes
This tick thingy doesnt seem stopping
even if the clock never ever existed in this world
and more importantly no matter how long it ticks
the same time, the same tick never ever come back again

Imagine there are so many ticks
yet they are all unique but still the same somehow

What did I mean by the statement above?
Different people would have different interpretation
So, I let a space here for your imagination and interpretation...

Anyway, get back to my memory post
I must admit one thing as I realised
How much I dint appreciate and treasure enough of my previous friendship
So I tried my best for the past few years to win it back
But still comparing to what my friends have done for me and
what I did for them were far too tiny....

For Example:

For these 3 years, they never once failed to do that on my birthday
A surprise celebration, small yet happy...
Okay I think once I told you guys the reason
The reasons why I am not fancy with the celebrations
Actually there was something I dint tell
which is I suck in responding to surprise
I cant really respond to surprise
If you were have to give me a surprise
Be ready that either I act very weird or
I will give you this no expression face...
Not that I dont wanna give you any response
is more that I dont know how or what responses I should give..
This delayed response to surprise often dissapoint my friends

So now I learned, instead of not giving any response
I react weirdly, at least give some entertaining effects, right?

Okay, they gave me this surprise at sharp 12am by coming to the office
where I was still rushing for the first part of my thesis...
with pair of dried and redish eyeballs that are gonna pop up... -.-
But I think that night I was be able to pump some adrenaline up
So, I tried to be funny the whole process =P

See, it's just naughty me...

Dont mess around with me...

Okay okay, get serious...

This is group of present and/or previous hostelmate/housemate

and this is the card from them...haha..a very cute card...

Million thanks to all of you!!!
So so so touched indeed...not only gave me such a surprise
but also granted me one more year, make me feel one year younger...
Dont understand?? Because they put the wrong age on the cake!!!
Well, dont feel bad, it makes me happy somehow...hahaha....

Okay that was first part...second part now
Second morning, it was a rush triggered me to wake up...What rush??
The rush for the toilet to release the tension of my bladder wall...

I rushed out of my room
Then I almost tripped over by something

!@%&*(*!$%^&*%$&^%$#@#%$#@!#$#

Who is playing this sick joke with me
by putting a box in front room early this morning
almost caused the "fluid" in the bladder to spill out -.-"

Well in another tick I took a closer look
It was a box like this on the front.....

with a card on top, this is the one...

Okay, I almost can guess who the senders were
Forgetting about my how much tension the bladder wall was getting
I stepped back into my room and read the card
The card was from one of the sender
and it was so so weird that I couldnt really understand
What was she trying to say in the card
Which she mentioned:

"I hope you like what we got for you
& that it'll be useful to you
though it will probably take some time getting used to"

@_@
Considering how blur I was when I just woke up with the toilet rush
This statement really drove me nuts....so what did they get me???
Cant wait to open up and see what they had actually got me
and this was it.....check it out

OMG!!!
Is this a surprise birthday joke or what??
Bare with me, that was really the question in my mind
I sat on my bed for awhile, still cant firgure out
What on earth just happened......

Okay, I was still very very blur and I told myself
may be I could be abit clearer when I got back from toilet
So I went to toilet to clear some of tension and washed up
Then the next moment, I went back my room and
starred at the box again...

"So, did they really get me a phone as birthday gift???"

"What if they really did? Shall I return to them and tell
them I cant accept this gift because I think it's too expensive?"

"But isnt that very mean and rude if someone got you something
for birthday gift and you said somtething like this back to them?"

"But this is really too expensive or a phone doesnt mean to be
a birthday gift bought by friends...??"

"See, told you not to complain to your friend about how bad condition
your old phones was, see now what happened...."

"Yea..but how would I expect them to get me something so expensive...
In fact I really dint expect they were gonna get me anything..."

The fighting between the Angel and the Demon went on and on
So I was there sitting on my bed and watched them fought...for an hour
I had no idea who won in the end but I did settle my emotion
and accepted the fact that I just received a birthday gift from my friend
in which the gift was a new 3G Samsung phone......

and this is a card from the other sender...

I felt so so bad yet so so so so so so so touched... T_T
Billion Thanks guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So, that was second part, the third part came from Malaysia

A close friend of mine sent me a birthday gift which reached
2 weeks after the actual date of my birthday
Well, not her fault, because my birthday coincided with
the Malay's Hari Raya which caused the major delay
Well, what could I say more to this friend
She never ever failed to send me the birthday gift
or her moral support as a close friend since ever we knew each other
As being a top fan of Eason Chan, I always benefit from that
haha...why??
Because she will happily buy me Eason's album whenever she like =P
Well..I really dont know how to express myself but say thank you...
This is what she got me...a card and another Eason's album =) like it..

Actually I have much more to continue
But thinking it could be too much to include all in one post
So i decided to separate it into 2 or 3 posts
To record down all my memories in these few weeks

Anyway recently when reading people's blog
I think they might be running out of idea to come out with a title
So instead of writing a specific title, they just put it as random post
Well.. I also wanna post something random while I was surfing before
I end this entry...check these out

I found out this by random chance in one of the uni toilet
I dont know if there are too many GUYS never knew how to pee
or they had never had any toilet training when they were young or
may be just the uni personnel wanna have fun and created this
step wise urinal push up campaign... -.-"

cant read properly?
I write it out for you:

Phase 1: Place one hand on wall
Phase 2: Lean forward, bending at the elbow until forehead is about 5-10cm from the wall
Phase 3: Grunt loudly as you breath out and return to neutral position

* Repeat until urination is completed.

I seriously have no idea what would actually happen if everyone follows that
Especially if there is someone passing by ouside of the toilet and
You are "GRUNTING loudly WHILE BREATHING OUT" in the toilet
Okay, may be my mind isnt that pure and clean
But TELL ME who on earth would actually do that by the fact that you are just
URINATING!!!

Okay, another randomness:
This guy as written there really has got steel ball
I once told my friend: Dont dare me or I would do it!!!
Well, I think this is one of thing that I wont do it
Even you DARE me....check this clip out, I find that damn funny!!!
You can check out more their insane game on youtube
Neg's Urban sports is the name, they are wicked!!!!!

p/s: I've started using the phone as some of you may have noticed and now I dont have to bring my camera everywhere if I wanna take photos even I went to toilet, Thanks guys once again!! ^^

Wish

2008-09-30T19:23:00.004+08:00

It's been three days, I've no much time left, since I couldnt get much help from him..I need to put more effort and I think now I should change my birthday wish to have 48 hrs or even 72 hours per day...24 hours?? It is just not enough...anyway I have no time to update the blog for my birthday's greeting, wishes and gifts from all my lovely friends, so sorry about that and now I am here just wanna shout out loud that:

Thanks to everyone!!!
You guys had done alot and mean alot to me!!!
I love all of you, always!!!

p/s: give myself one week or two, I should be able to catch up everything!! ^^ stay tune dude!!!

Answer

2008-09-20T12:43:00.003+08:00

I bet sometimes you would have the frustration
The frustration of something like being seeking for long
and yet you still cant get the correct answer or the answer that is satisfactory
and in the end you would just wanna shout out loud that
"Can someone just give me the damn stupid answer???"

One close friend gave me an advice:
"When you are stress, just keep eating and eat up all the stress"
hmmm...once it was my philosophy, and I wonder if it still works

It's been a week, I finished
2 chocolate blocks, 2 rolls of biscuit and 1 pack of chocolate chips
and I found out this method dint work well this time
I guess is either too much stress or the world doesnt work in that anymore
erm.....you may ask: so what to do with the world??

HOW DO I KNOW???
WHAT I WANT IS JUST THE ANSWER
COULD YOU PLEASE GIVE ME THE DAMN STUPID ANSWER!!!???

Hollow man

2008-09-19T10:41:00.004+08:00

Have you ever seen a Hollow man?
hmmm...I bet not
If a person is already a Hollow man
How can you still be seeing him, right?

But I tell you what
I saw one!!!
No, should say I feel him
or more appropriately I should say
I feel exactly like a Hollow man

When people saw you, they dint talk to you
When you said something, you are just being ignored
When you asked something, they just smiled at you
When you did something wrong, they kept smiling at you still
(if i am not hollow, then either they are blind or crazy....)

Isnt it exactly like a hollow man
People will not see you
Unless you put on the mask that not belongs to you
and smile back at them
Then only people can see you
and may be then only they would respond to you

My sister just suggested me to put some make up
on the mask to make it more presentable
But what I think is even I am not quite happy
with the mask on already
Do you think I will put somemore make up
on top of the fake mask???
Furthermore I am not good at putting make up
I think perhap I would just stuff up the mask
and the make up if I would have to do it

Anyway, few more months to go
Dont worry
I will stay tight with this hollow man
and putting on and off the mask
and be my own happy hollow man....

SMS

2008-09-17T23:09:00.004+08:00

The other day received a SMS from my friend
which really brightened my day
when i was a little down
Because I find it is cute and funny
It was a greeting SMS for Moon cake festival
Here comes with the details:
(still in chinese and tried to translate it)

“幸福” 就是猫吃鱼，狗吃肉，奥特曼打小怪兽
"Happiness" is cat eats fish, dog eats meat, ultraman beats little monster

“代沟” 就是我问老爸觉得“菊花台”怎么样，他回答：没喝过
"generation gap" is when I asked Dad how is “菊花台”(song by Jay chow), he said he never tried drinking before

“自恋” 就是下辈子我一定要投胎做女人，然后嫁给有我这么好的男人
"Narcissim" is in next life I must become a woman to marry a good guy just like me

“无语” 就是法官问：你为什么印假钞？罪犯无辜的说：因为我不会印真钞
"Speechless" is when judge asked: why did you print the fake note? criminal answer: because I dont know how to print real note

“绝望” 就是中午食堂点了两个菜，吃了第一个震撼了我：世上还有比这更难吃的吗？吃了第二道我哭了：还真有啊！！
"Desperation" is after eating the first of two dishes from the cafeteria, I got a shock: Is there anything in the world can taste worse than this? After eating the second dish, I cried: There really is...

“诚意” 就是像我这样提前 N 多天祝你中秋节快乐
"Sincerity" is like me wish you have a happy mooncake festival N days before the actual day ^^

Anyway, hope this give some laughters to you and thanks to TJHANN for the SMS ^^

Good EQ

2008-09-16T13:29:00.005+08:00

Received an email from sister, hmm...here to share with people especially those with lower EQ....including myself...haha..

一大早，我跳上一部計程車，要去台北郊區做企業內訓。
因正好是尖峰時刻，沒多久車子就卡在車陣中，此時前座的司機先生開始不耐地嘆起氣來。
隨口和他聊了起來：「最近生意好嗎？」後照鏡的臉垮了下來，聲音臭臭的：
「有什麼好？到處都不景氣，你想我們計程! 車生意會好嗎？每天十幾個時，也賺不到什麼錢，真是氣人！」

嗯，顯然這不是個好話題，換個主題好了，我想，
於是我說：「不過還好你的車很大很寬敞，即便是塞車，也讓人覺得很舒服?」
他打斷了我的話，聲音激動了起來：「舒服個鬼！不信你來每天坐 12個小時看看，看你還會不會覺得舒服！？」
接著他的話匣子開了，抱怨政府無能、社會不公，所以人民無望。我只能安靜地聽，一點兒插嘴的機會也沒。

兩天後同一時間，我再一次跳上了計程車，再一次地要去郊區同一家企業做訓練，然而這一次卻開啟了迥然不同的經驗。一上車，一張笑容可掬的臉龐轉了過來，伴隨的是輕快愉悅的聲音：「你好，請問要去哪?堙H 」
真是難得的親切，我心中有些訝異，隨即告訴了他目的地。他笑了笑：「好，沒問題！」
然而走沒兩步，車子又在車陣中動彈不得了起來。
前座的司機先生手握方向盤，開始輕鬆地吹起口哨哼起歌來，顯然今天心情不錯。
於是我問：「看來你今天心情很好嘛！」
他笑得露出了牙齒：「我每天都是這樣啊，每天心情都很好。
「為什麼呢？」我問：「大家不都說景氣差，工作時間長，收入都不理想嗎？」
司機先生說：「沒錯，我也有家有小孩要養，所以開車時間也跟著拉長為 12個小時。不過，日子還是很開心過的，我有個祕密? 」他停頓了一下：「說出來先生你別生氣，好嗎？」
當然好，只要是快樂的祕密，我這個念過心理學的都感興趣。
他說：「我總是換個角度來想事情。例如，我覺得出來開車，其實是客人付錢請我出來玩。像今天一早，我就碰到像你這樣的先生，花錢請我跟你到陽明山去玩，這不是很好嗎？等下到了陽明山，你去辦你的事，而現在是花季，我就正好可以順道賞賞花，抽根菸再走啦！」
他繼續說：「像前幾天哦，有一對情侶去淡水看夕陽，他們下車後，我也下來喝碗魚丸湯，擠在他們旁邊看看夕陽才走，反正來都來了嘛，更何況還有人付錢呢？」漂亮！多精采的一個祕密！我突然意識到自己有多幸運，一早就有這份榮!
幸，跟前座的EQ高手同車出遊，真是棒極了。又能坐車，心情又開心，這樣的服務有多難得，我決定跟這位司機先生要電話，以後再邀他一起出遊。接過他名片的同時，他的手機鈴聲正好響起，有位老客人要去機場，原來喜歡他的不只我一位，相信這位EQ高手的工作態度，不但替他贏得好心情，也必定帶進許多生意。

快樂其實是一種習慣心理學家發現，快樂其實是一種習慣，不論環境怎麼變，EQ 高手的快樂決心是不會改變的。當我們能換一種心態去看待自己的工作，並帶著遊戲般的愉快心情面對工作，你會發覺自己的內在能量強大許多，抗壓應變的功力也因此大為增進，而這，也正是貫徹快樂決心的漂亮做法。我自己就常覺得，工作其實是一種偽裝，讓我有很好的藉口及機會，能! 因著演講及各種活動，去認識許許多多有趣精彩的人，這不是很過癮嗎？（更何況，往往還有人付錢呢！）。

如果您收到別人分享給您的好文章，不要吝嗇，您也可以繼續分享給好友，請別忘我這一份喔。當我們用心對人時 ,有心人將! 以熱情回報妳,希望我們都是用心的人 ,也是有心的人。

Old Fairy Tale

2008-09-15T00:19:00.006+08:00

There was a pretty old song about this beautiful festival, Mooncake festival or Lantern festival from Group of Malaysian Singers, the lyrics go like this

月亮圆月亮圆月亮照在我的家
The round moon, the round moon, the round moon shines at my home

没有春夏秋冬的家流传千年
It homes to all four seasons with its everlasting tale

现在的孩子不相信月亮有小白兔
Children this day do not believe tale about the moon with the rabbit

功课与电脑使他们不再听古老的神话
Busy school workload and computer have replaced the role of this old fairy tale

当高楼大厦遮挡了古老的月亮
As the concrete jungle has been blocking the view of this ancient moon

就趁这季节让你的孩子知道
You need to let your kids know about this festival

古老的神话源自何方
Where did the old fairy tale come from and what was it about

——山脚下男孩《月亮圆》

Here comes with the MTV of this song

One thing I have to mention, if you dont really know about the tale, you wont be able to understand the lyric. So for those who doesnt know about this fairy tale, here I come....to tell you:

I have just roughly told a friend of mine few days ago about this old fairy tale (if I remember correctly), the tale started off like this:

Once upon a time, there used to have 10 suns in this world, as their duties these 10 suns always took turns to provide sunlight to the earth with only one sun per day. However, there was one day these 10 suns decided to come out and "play" and "have fun" together, and this really brought the severe draught to the earth. What made the worst was they wouldnt wanna go away even night time which caused the death of lot of innocent lives.

At times, there was one hercules on the earth decided to use his arrows to shoot down all the suns, so he held his bow and arrows to shoot the first sun, second, then third until he was gonna to shoot the 10th sun, someone (cant remember who..-.-") came to beg him to let go the last sun, otherwise the whole world will live in cold forever in which he evetually did.

To thank him for solving the problem, someone (again i forgot who was that) gave him 2 bottles of medicine and claimed that after drinking the med, even normal human being can become lighter and be able to fly. So the hercules kept the medicine thinking that he might need it in future. Coincidently, hercules's wife had found this medicine but she had no idea what's the medicine for and thinking that it might be some good stuffs, she took those 2 bottles at one go, and this made her become lighter and lighter and eventually she flew to the moon and never came back anymore. There were some side story about after his wife flew to the moon, people from the earth could see the rabbit shadow and believed that she had adopted a pet which was a rabbit on the moon. So on the day when she flew away, it was on the mid of month (15th) in lunar calendar, and people thus made this day as a festival to remark her flying to the moon.

Yes, it is an old fairy tale after all, I know. I dont believe to any fairy tale since I was very young, I knew they dont exist but sometimes its kinda fun to listen to it because I am a person who really like to imagine beyond reality. =P

Ok anyway, found the other version of this song clip that has some animations which could give you few pictures of the song and fairy tale that I have jut told....

Okay, Lastly Happy moon cake festival....to all of you

Express myself

2008-09-11T21:40:00.002+08:00

This is gonna be very short entry

I really couldnt express myself
how much anger has been building up inside me

I know that I am always not good enough
I am trying to become better

May be I am stupid
May be you also dont like me
But
Do I really deserve all these treatments?

Why......
I still dont know how to express
myself
my anger........

HAPPY

2008-09-09T20:42:00.004+08:00

Hey, I was really really angry in afternoon
and below was my temper...........

(100000000000000000000000000000 C)

Someone really did trigger me
Thank god received a call from sisters
"If you are not happy with others means that your self-cultivation is not good enough" (看别人不顺眼就是自己的修养不够)

Alright, this phrase really helps me alot
I fely much better after that
Yes, I know i did nothing wrong
The matter of fact is not worth to be angry
That is my own stuff after all
Why should other people care about it

Okay, not to be angry or upset
But Still can be happy right?
Just realised there are quite a few friends'
Especially those in Malaysia
Having the Bday during this month
Some of them were once really close

Vyong, Bin, Tuck Siu, YiMing...
Bare with me if I dint mention you
Because I admit I really have bad memory

SO for Whoever is having Bday in this month
Be happy yea
Lastly
Have something funny for all of you

p/s: Remember to be happy, everything will turn out good, have faith in yourself

Comic ^^

2008-09-04T22:23:00.003+08:00

Dad: The new semester is just started, how come so fast get zero marks for your test?
Son: Teacher said, everything has to be started from zero!

English Language Examination
Composition title: white goat & black goat
Son (thinking): Argghh...it's so hard for me to write composition in English
So when the son started to write about white goat met with black goat...
Black goat asked: Can you speak Chinese?
White goat answered: Of course, why not?
The remaning story will be continued in Chinese then... -.-"

Mother: Do you like your sister?
Son: No, because you keep carrying her
Mother: Why dont we just sell her to someone then?
Son: No
Mother: why?
Son: We can wait until she grows older, so that we can sell her at higher price...-.-"

Teacher: Students, please make a sentence using the word "aim"

Student: You are the most increadible & beautiful woman I have ever seen
Teacher: Thanks for that but where is the word of "aim"?
Student: So the "aim" is I wish can go home ealier today

Dad: In future who do you want to marry as your wife?
Son: Granmom treat me the best, I will marry her
Dad: Crap! How can you marry my mom?!
Son: If so, how come my mom can be your wife?!
Dad:......

Dad: What is the answer given that one added by one?
Son: I dont know
Dad: the answer is 2, dumb ass, understand?
Son: yes....
Dad: So, what is the answer if adding together you and me?
Son: is 2 dumb ass, dad!!
Dad:........

Teacher: XXX got 20 marks, YYY got 10 marks
A: hai...i got zero
B: me too...
A: Do you think teacher will suspect us cheating since we got the same mark?

In XX Company HR Dept
Manager: So, tell me things that you dont know
Interviewee: There are only two things I dont know in this world
Manager: oh, really? what are those two things?
Interviewee: "This" I dont know, "That" also I dont know
Manager:......

Sparks

2008-09-01T21:46:00.003+08:00

It's been a long long winter to me...
Gloomy, cold, hopeless, endless one indeed

Do you know how much I wish the winter in Australia
could be in this white??
That was a image in my mind while i was very young about winter

Its almost come towards to the end of this winter
Non-stop raining is not uncommon in this weather transition

Well...
new season is coming

I need some sparks
To lights up my following day
get more motivation

and then keep the spark rolling on and on....

Happy Birthday

2008-08-30T23:28:00.003+08:00

I seldom do this...
After poundering for awhile
I decided to write this post

I was thinking
what is the reason I do this for
To show that I am patriotic enough
To ask others be more patriotism

No matter what is the reason
I have been walking through
with YOU for a quater of century
Growing up with YOU

The feeling is there
The love is there

Hopefully one day in future
ALL of us can hold the hands together
and be very very proud and confidently
Shout out loud:

MALAYSIA really BOLEH

anyway, wish YOU have a great 51st anniversary...
truly from my heart....

Happy birthday...

Recent me

2008-08-28T00:39:00.003+08:00

There are too many things keep striking to my mind recently, I dont know if I am too sensitive or I am just too fragile to be challenged after all...and one thing for sure is I was mentally exhausted...so was taking break and youtubing for a night and found some touching clips which made me tears...

T.T well not too bad to have such a night so that I would have a good sleep later on...and share with you guys some of the clips I found...

Following 3 of them are the ads, I never knew that such an short ad can be this nice~

Also two of the korean MTV which touches the deepest of my soul... T.T

p/s: Dont get too realistic when watching this like one of my friend was doubting the doctor was able to transplant the eyes....do you know that you have just killed all the moods and atmosphere if you ever asked a stupid question like this....

p/s: Again another touching MTV, my friend and I again were discussing over this, and thinking what are we gonna do if we were the guy in the scene.....would you stay or leave?

Graduated......yet

2008-08-19T19:10:00.003+08:00

Yes...
After 3.5 years of suffering...
Finally
I am graduated
Officially graduated from
Biomedical Science Course
In University of Tasmania, Australia.

So, am I...
Feeling proud?

>NO

Feeling relieve?

>NO

Why???

>Because

I still need to go doing my experiment every morning
I still need to work 4-5 days a week
I still have my thesis to write
I still stuck in Launnie...

Well,
Not Proud, Not Relieve

But at least I was
Quite Happy

To have group of friends
Graduating together with me

To have group of friends
Attending the ceremony

Although it would be better
To have family to share
This
exciting
happiness moment

I understand
Actually I know I am very lucky compared to the others
so I am satisfied... =) so dont worry yea

Because it was such a rush
that we needed to return the gown within
90 minutes
after the ceremony

It was really regretted that
I dint manage to take photos
with all my friends and classmates...

Anyway, I still managed to get some
But I am not going through one by one
So for whoever is interested
I have actually put the slideshow
at the end of the page
So enjoy it... ^^

I'm SAD

2008-08-17T09:20:00.005+08:00

I think probably some of you may have been waiting or looking forward some of the convocation photos uploaded here, (but not so soon) course I havent actually rearrange it yet.....anyway just feel very unhappy after reading this email from my friend and I know is particular sensitive issue, but as a citizen of this country, if whatever attached below is a truth...ok I will say I'm very very dissapointed and sad about it and in fact I really hope that all these are not true and just some people playing fool around with some photoshopped work.....

HERE ARE THE "STUFFS" THAT I RECEIVED FROM THE EMAIL:

For those of you who are NOT bothered in stressing your brains too much in understanding the written Malay or those who dont understand Malay, here is the translation:

Therefore, I as the Head of Graduates of University of Malaya would like to advice all our fellow graduates of University of Malaya to combine forces and prepare ourselves together with all the necessary knowledge and preparation before we continue our fight in the actual battle field.

This advice implies mainly to our Malay Graduates. We must treasure the sacrifices made by our ancestors which tried so hard to ensure that Tanah Melayu ( Malay Land ) is FREE from the intrusion of alien races.

We must NOT fall into the category of those who forgets their roots until they will be taken over by other races.

Graduates must prove themselves that we are capable and the best choice to take over the throne of governing the country in the future.

This implies with the theme of MPMUM Progressive, Dynamic, Professional. There is nothing more important that can compared to our always-sensitive and improving graduates.

I also would like to advice all Malay Graduates to prepare ourselves in facing all sorts of unpredicted challenges that may occur in near future, relating to the rise of our fellow citizens, in particular to the non-Malay races.

Don't let ourselves slack and allow our 'enemies under the blankets to attack us'
(Direct translation from the Malay idiom)

Don't allow our Malaysia to fall into the hands of those who are irrelevant.

P/S: My friends there, once again I really hope that all these are not true, otherwise I believe that there will be more Namewee coming up not only playing fool with national anthem, but......ok whatever I hope this thing are not true.....

Remarkable day

2008-08-13T00:40:00.003+08:00

Graduation day
My graduation day?
I never thought that I can make this far

It should be the day
filled with
joy, happiness, excitement, smile and laugh
on 16/08/2008
It should be a remarkable day...

I already proved it
Proved that it is not in our blood
who can only be the hard labour
and never be able to make it come true

God knows
how much effort need to put
how much I need to sacrifice
to make myself walk this far

Is it all gonna pay back
Is it what I really wanted after all
Am I really looking forward to all these
Would I be going back to square one

I wonder
and always wonder....

Fighting

2008-08-10T23:16:00.004+08:00

I dont know why recently there are so many things happen that put me in a dilemma and more importantly, they keep fighting in me!!!!!

One asked me to go for it, one asked me to stop...

Well, seriously I've been always a conservative person
who think that Angel is always right;
But this time, the fact is
I dont know which words are from Angel or from Demon...

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Okay, whoever my angel is...
Can you please show up and give me some guides???
Please....

OMG

2008-08-09T13:40:00.004+08:00

Oh my my my GOD!!!!!!!!!!!
Guess what I saw this morning in the toilet?!?!?!
I saw a...

ZOMBIE

from the MIRROR!!!!!

oh my god....

What happen to the mirror...

or...

May be I should ask

What happen to me...

=S

Coincidence?

2008-08-05T20:24:00.005+08:00

There are many things in this world, you cant really differentiate and may be sometimes you yourself never want to distinguish if whatever happens is just coincident or fated or may even just an accident......

My friend introduced a short clip on youtube to me,
it was about the story between the brothers and the adpoted lion cub...I think what surprised most of people was not only the lion can still recognised both of them but also showed very sincere welcome with a BIG BIG HUG depite after one year being released to wild......

I always wonder, is it coincident, fated or just accidentally for all this thing to happen, even with an animal as fierce as a lion, they can have such unbelievable relationship, but why cant human beings do the same for each other....

Is it all fated?
I always wonder & appreciate what I've got with others...

原来。。。

2008-08-05T16:00:00.009+08:00

時光機

有一封信寄到了我的信箱，
ygy，很久沒看到的名詞。
有些夢魘很想讓自己忘記，卻又得時時刻刻記得這些隨時會埋伏在身邊的陷阱。
一年一年過去了，一直很想把這種心情記錄下來，
卻又覺得有一絲絲的不堪回首。
在我剛脫離白衣藍裙的時代，還對每一個人信任的時代，
我投入一個慈善組織，籌備一場舞台劇。
遇到一群同樣熱血的少年，沒想到也會遇到披著狼皮的人。

那天在我倉皇的逃離現場後，竟然還很冷靜的回到ygy上班。
我的眼睛也開始看清了很多事情，
為名為利的高層，和濫用職權的經理。
人前英明的領導者，慈祥的長輩，
卻彼此間明爭暗鬥。

曾經我們花了很多的心力去整理義工的資料，
到雲頂看了好多次場地，
費盡了心去賣票，
跑了好多次去找廠商。
我也相信無論是我的夥伴們，還是這些願意相助的人，都是懷著菩薩的心伸出雙手。
那個幫我們製作志工衣服的阿姨，還一直用師姐來稱呼我。
反倒是所謂的高層，
讓我第一次看見了成人社會的奸詐。

在舞臺劇上演的當天，我穿著工作服，站在劇場的階梯。
看到千手千眼觀音發出的光芒，我心中有一種無比的震撼，
很感動的滴下了眼淚。
宗教本身和活動本身都是有意義的。
只是我不小心涉足了陷阱，
直到往後幾年都心存餘悸。

在舞台劇結束的隔天，
我坐上了飛機，飛翔在兩萬英尺的高空，告別馬來西亞。
這是我隻身踏入另一個社會的第一步。

Posted by: shirlyn on November 20, 2005

我依稀记得，不不，应该说，我记得很清楚

七年前的那五天四夜，是我中学生时代，

除了在乐团外最快乐的五天四夜。。。。。

当时不由得我不信缘分，

“千手前眼舞台剧” 的义工报名表本来是给我姐拿的

阴差阳错却是我填了我的资料，朋友帮我交的表格，

负责人当中确是无独有偶的是我乐团的一个学姐

舞台剧虽然只演三晚，

但身为义工就得提早一天报到，延迟一天收拾手尾

但在这五天四夜的日子里，

认识了一班很有默契的义工(当中包括一班很好玩的南洋学记)，

一群很和蔼，很合群，很善心的临时义工

大家的合作无间，在云顶过了很愉快的五天四夜

FAT 的义工组也成了当时义工最团结最好玩的一群

别误会啦，FAT stands for Food, Acommodation & Transportation

我记得非常清楚，当时穿着义工服的我，

也非常期待可以看到那场舞台剧

当然，演出最后一天，如我所愿，

看见当晚的演出真的非常震撼我的视觉与听觉感官

当然，那晚也是我人生看表演感动得落泪的第一次。。（是泪水不由自主地落下）

"在舞臺劇上演的當天，我穿著工作服，站在劇場的階梯。
看到千手千眼觀音發出的光芒，我心中有一種無比的震撼，
很感動的滴下了眼淚。"

雪芳，其实我也一样。。。

原来间中有这么多的政治问题，那是我们这班义工永远都被蒙在鼓里的事情

不过我的那时的信念确实和你一样的。。

“我也相信無論是我的夥伴們，還是這些願意相助的人，都是懷著菩薩的心伸出雙手。
那個幫我們製作志工衣服的阿姨，還一直用師姐來稱呼我。”

更让我想不到的事，演出完的隔天，你就静悄悄的飞了，

也难怪这几年都没有你的音讯。。。。直到今天再读回你以前的blog

才发现原来当年，有些事是我们这些义工完全不知道的。。原来。。。

无论如何，现在留在我记忆中的只有衣橱里一白，一黑，一黄的工作服

和一本充满笑声，汗水，泪水的相簿，足以让我在有生之年不停的回味。。。

My Mood

2008-08-03T21:01:00.025+08:00

Okay, whoever is reading this, there is a warning here:
The following materials posted could create some "unwell" or "uncomfortable" visual effect to the readers, so if you think you are the one, you may just leave now; and for any reason please dont scold me or pick me up if you want to continue reading!!!
(Because I know some people are particularly sensitive to the materials that is gonna to be posted)

As previously mentioned in the "自己" entry, there was a presentation for my honours and is now over in which I had put myself to an extremely tension and stress circumstance so that hopefully I could give my best hit for that and apparently it did go well though its not graded.

Once there was a friend told me: "I cant work really well when my room in a mess..."
THAT'S THE POINT, I am just the other way around, I think I can work better in a mess.... -.-||

Okay, anyway to put myself in such a tension and stress condition, not only that was my strategy but it was also indeed representing my true feeling, emotion, thinking and etc etc....

And that's it, I'm "proudly" presenting it to all of you:

My external world as well as my internal world when I am stress...
(such a mess after all...hahaha...)

OH MAN!! After taking all these photos I realised I nearly lost track of my Lit Q... and knowing that I am still abit emo my friend made me this....Whao~ its nice to have something like the rootbeer from A&W in Malaysia, Thank you...

So, after realising I cant let my Lit Q lost in this messy world and with the booster from my friend, I decided to change my mood after the stupid presentation.....

Well sometimes to me my mood is just as simple as the on off switch

Life's too short, have more fun, why not just switch it on? =)

This is my mood after 2 hours.... =) TADA~~

Those all are my notes for 3 years of being a Biomedical Science student.....such an unforgettable experience and memory.....
and also my laundry basket...haha..

Do you think there are too many boxes on top of my clothset?
Please dont underestimate these boxes, you will find them are rather useful when you are moving...
especially for poor student like me....hehehehe ^^

and There is my bed....my warm warm bed..... ^^

and my studying desk....finally Lit Q...I found you......

Wonder what are those next to my studying desk??? Dont have to guess, I will bring you to a closer shot in the next photo and explain to you....

This is it, I called it as ducky's corner. Here I have got my snacks, my supplementary, my fruits, my airfreshener, DVDs......oh, not forget to mention, there is my poster that I did for my final year assignment, because of its size, really have no idea so just put it underneath of my corner....hahahaha.....

And let me introduce you, these are my heaters that is gonna help go through this icy cold winter~~behind one is the fan heater and front one is the halogen heater ^^

And YES, I found my Lit Q and get him a best spot to shelter...so again I decided to take photo of the whole family of mine again...including Lit Q this time ^^

To some people that might have noticed the clock, dont envy yea, its 17 degree celsius in my room again....hehehe.....

This is sunset shot taken from my window....another day gone..
and its time to go working then.... -.-

Do you know what is this?? hahaha...well if you got it, very smart of you; but if you cant, well I am not telling you the answer either.... ^^ going to work lor....

Last lecture

2008-08-02T23:44:00.003+08:00

Thanks to Shrilyn or I should say her Boss asking them to watch the "Last Lecture" given by Professor Randy Pausch, and through Shrilyn's blog, which apparently now I am having the same entry title for today which is "The Last Lecture", I found it was quite meaningful and touching...

Not forget to mention, it's been awhile I havent got to listening to any good presenter recently, he was indeed one of the best presenter I have ever seen...his leave is such a waste to this world...

Following is the clip of his last lecture:

More about him on this website:

http://download.srv.cs.cmu.edu/~pausch/

Enjoy it~

自己

2008-07-28T12:56:00.017+08:00

“浑浑噩噩”

这四个字本来是我今天的标题，但，
最后我还是把他改了。。。

这几天，我的生活非常的颓废，
我甚至怀疑了自己的存在。。。

为何如此颓废？
因为，
这星期五就是荣誉学士的第一次
Presentation
反观，我一点也不紧张
潜意识下，我就让自己越变越颓废
让自己的罪恶感累积到了极点
让自己变紧张，害怕
期望着在最后的几天时间内
然后把自己推到极限、继而爆发
最后把应该要交的东西呈上。。。

而后呢？
就继续混吗。。。？
如果我今天还不醒的话
铁定会继续混下去
因为我就是这样度过了过去的三年。。。

昨天去打工的时候
老板为了帮我缴税的事
问我：
"你今年几岁啦"

我迟疑了一下：
"二十四"

为什么迟疑？
因为我忘了
忘了自己今年多大了

不可笑吗？
竟然有人可以无端白事
有时候连自己的年龄，生日
家地址，都可以忘记的人
不可笑吗？

曾经有个朋友问：
"为什么你的学业成绩那么好？"
"为什么考试的东西你都记得？"
"唯独其他的事你都记不得？
就连刚发生过的事你也不记得？"

你想知道原因吗？
虽然你看不懂中文，
而我也会说出这个原因，
但今天这是写给我自己的。。。

因为，我一直都在逃
我，其实就是一个从来都输不起的人
一旦输了，转身就逃
希望躲得越远越好
最好可以当什么事都没发生过

自此也就让我养成
一个逃兵
所有的恶习
不想负任何责任
不想承担任何事情

学业如此
感情如此
家庭也一样
甚至连自己也放弃了

成天就像行尸走肉
一个不思考
没有回忆
没有感情
没有灵魂的躯壳

原来不是混了三年
而是浑浑噩噩的
虚度了人生中的二十多年

其实
早在很多年前
我姐已经不停的在骂我：
“弟，你这种做人态度很不行呐”
“整天都浑浑噩噩过日子是不行的”

不是我不以为意
也不是我不赞同我姐说的话
只是我从来就
没勇气面对自己
没有勇气面对过去
没有勇气接受失败

到最后就变得
得过且过
为吃饭而吃饭
为走路而走路
为学习而学习
完全失去了自己，失去了灵魂

常把得失看得很轻
然后还装清高地告诉别人
自己不在乎
不在乎？
其实我比谁都在乎

在乎家人管不管我
在乎家人关不关心我
在乎有没有人记得我生日
在乎我的成绩好不好
在乎朋友到底是不是真的重视我
在乎有没有人喜欢我
在乎我喜欢的人
在乎我曾经喜欢的人
在乎曾经喜欢我的人

因为
我输不起
不想希望越大，失望更大

所以我选择
不去想
不去记
不去做
不去思考

让凡事都“顺其自然”
其实说白了
不是什么“顺其自然”
而是：随波逐流

什么事都不主动
凡事都站在被动的位置
当事情不成功时
就说命运，注定
当时成功时
就说是幸运，恰好，当成Bonus

三年前
又再次的逃到了澳洲这个小岛
但没想到刚来到这里
就和一个老朋友的关系搞砸了
在这段友谊的结束前，我依然选择逃避

在这三年里
朋友的事我几乎都放在第一位
原因很简单
我不想看到他们面对困难时变得彷徨无助
不想他们有问题时转身就跑
更不想的是
不想在他们身上看见自己逃跑的影子

现在回想起来
觉得还真可笑
我简直就是以一百步笑五十步吧？
不知量力
一个叫其他人不要当逃兵的逃兵
他。。。不可笑吗？

近来，
很多人都在问我一个问题
“有了女朋友了吗？”
“怎么还不找一个？”

这是一个很讽刺的笑话
一个连自己都还没找到的人
怎么能为自己找到女朋友呢？

再次
我躲过了他们的追问
逃过自己的说：
没事，我还有很多青春，现在还不需要在乎

也许有一件事
到了今天，尤其是看了台湾偶像剧“命中注定我爱你”后
里面的一段对白才让我惊觉
原来我也是一直都逃避着的
那句对白是由Dylan所说的：
“看了张旭的书法就不会对楷书有兴趣。。。
如果心中觉得曾经有过最好的，当然也就不会对其他的有兴趣。。”

唉，如果明白的话就好
不明白的话也就算了
因为我终究还是一个loser...

近来，家人知道我过得不怎么开心
所以姐姐们就寄了一些东西来安慰，鼓励我
当中终于“点”醒我的是

一本书和小Q

对，那可爱的公仔就是我姐口中的小Q
他们说，小Q和我很像，所以就买来陪我
我想，他们想说的是，我在他们心目当中永远都那么可爱，
要我开开心心，和小Q一样，微笑常在。。。

谢谢你们默默的支持，我会努力的找回我自己，做会自己的！

看吧，小Q很皮嘞。。。在我书桌上乱坐。。。

也感谢上天的安排，让两个新生命在我家的出现，把我们每一个牵的更紧。。

这是我的小外甥，
姓名：管书睿
外号：管小小（因为我们把姐夫叫管大大 =P）
年龄：5个多月（但怎么看都像一岁了耶）

看吧，这是我哥的女儿，我调皮的侄女，不知道是不是又在欺负管小小咯 -.<
姓名：黄凯欣（我爸取的名字，说是要她开开心心，当然也让全家人开心）
外号：小恶魔（我取的，她要是发狂时，可真是蛮横无理的小恶魔哟）
年龄：2岁半（别人都说她个儿高，像三四岁比较多）

小小 & 我姐

小小 & 我妈

小小 & 他爷爷和奶奶

小小 & 他妈

小小 & 他爸

小小 & 我姐，我 & 我爸！

p/s 1: 写这篇文章最大的动机就是要激励自己，当然也希望从而激励所有看得懂这篇文章又起共鸣的朋友，希望你们赶快找回你们自己。。。希望我也如此。。。

p/s 2: 乐团的朋友，要是您看到今天这一帖，我有一个要求，那就是，如果您还留着当年在乐团的照片的话，等我们再见到面时，想跟你们借一借当年的照片去冲洗一套，因为当年愚笨的我，竟然没给自己留下任何回忆，相信吗？在乐团的六年，我一张乐团的照片都没有。。我后悔了，我要找回过去，找回记忆，找回自己。。。在此先谢谢你们

Loser

2008-07-22T20:59:00.007+08:00

How do you define the word for my title here?

There was once I was talking to my lecturer, then in the middle of the conversation, suddenly I remembered I had the other appointment so with the first instinct I asked my lecturer:

"What is the time now?"

At the same time, the other lecturer was passing by and heard our conversation, and he was trying to tell me the time because he was wearing a watch...and simultaneously I recalled that actually I did bring my phone (this has been my watch since I am using a mobile phone), so I said again:

"Never mind, I know the time now" and holding my hp in my hand at the same time..

"For Hae, you are such a loser...why do you need a phone to tell you the time?"

Seriously, at that point of time, I really dint think that I am a loser, in reverse I think they are outdated...(haha...dont tell them)

But now think deeper, what he said was quite true...

I once have this friend, from Singapore, knowing that she has been working for quite number of years, I bet anyone who knows her would say she is relatively naive in her thinking, well that probably is her personality...

Talking about this friend, to get her abit "smarter" than whoever she is, I told her:

"To survive in the society this day, you just have to put on different masks when you meet different people under different circumstances.."

"Wont you feel that is relatively fake and tiring??"

"yes, but that is the way of this world is..."

Some of you may or may not agree with me, but certainly I still think that I am right and not to refuse the fact that it is definitely (at least i think) the way how a loser deal with things...

It is really a pain when you

wanna scold people
wanna scream at people
wanna slap on people face
wanna voice your opinion
wanna confess to someone

but you still dint...

I remembered one of dialog from KungFu Panda in which i find it meaningful rather than funny, there was one scene when the Panda was running away when he knew Tai Lang is coming after him and he was stopped by his ShiFu:

"It hurts whenever you said me stink, and I knew that you were chasing me away since I was here...it couldnt be more hurt than being myself, being me everyday..."

It is very true that it's a pain being someone that you dont meant to be and doing something that you dont want to and putting on and off of different masks...

It's just a loser...afterall

p/s: No offense to anyone but I do realise almost everyone is loser in some sense, in fact I am also one of them...

Dinner ^^

2008-07-21T20:28:00.017+08:00

My friend was right, ever since I started working I became very lazy to cook for myself and somehow I miss my own cooking.....so as tonight I wasnt working I decided to treat myself a nice nice dinner...hehe...let's see what I cooked for myself...

TADA~~

So, what food would you link with this claypot??

If you are quick enough, this is it, claypot chicken rice!!!
Yeah! I have never once cook a claypot chicken rice before,
So why dont give it a try...hehehe....the matter of fact is
I succeeded!!!

see this, yummy....

The picture was not clear enough? Never mind, how about this??
The steam comes up from it makes the whole picture looks much better, more delicious..

How about adding an egg on top?? whao~~ I love it!!!

Actually the stove was already turned off before I put in the egg,
but the claypot itself still hot enough to cook the egg...

After closing the lid for short while...yes the egg was almost cooked..

Last but not least, how about adding some chinese style lup cheong on top?
YES, brilliant idea!! haha....

Ready to serve?? Come let's eat...yea =P

15 mintues later....and you think is done?
No...if you have never eaten a claypot chicken rice, tell you what,
this is the best bit of it, though as what one of my junior said,
it might be carcinogenic, but heck, the burnt part is the best..hehe..

This is what I call real finish for a dish...my claypot chicken rice indeed..

yeah..washing time..

Feeling hungy now? or envy?
hahaha... dont have to...just quickly go and cook yourself a nice dish too!

Anyway, Thanks to people who lend me the claypot..Appreciate that..hehe =P

Triangular & Octagonal

2008-07-17T09:43:00.005+08:00

If I had never studied abroad,
If I had never moved out from Uni Accom,
I would have never ever met so many of "interesting" people.

The other day, I was chatting with one of my friend
During the coversation, we came across talking about
the different people that we have met so far which
from different places with different culture and different thinking
and at the end of our conversation, I concluded that
Those weird people are TRIANGULAR and OCTAGONAL people
(三尖八角)

My friend was puzzled, so I explained
Do you think a normal person would be in triangular or octagonal shape???
No right?!
That means they are really weird!!!!!

So, recently I have met another person which
I have once again categorised her in this group of people
here comes with the story

In a very great morning,
I was in a very good mood,
in my sweet dream, everything is good

Suddenly,
"Kra Kra Kra..Bing Bing Bing...Bang Bang.."

What the hell?!?!
The noise was from my next door!!
Not the one my housemate room but the toilet
Yes, my next door is a toilet again.... -.-"

Okay, I was fully awake
Knowing that someone was in the toilet
So I have to hold my bladder...zzzzz......
At the same time lying on the bed....

I dint aware how long I had been waiting
until there was no sound from the toilet
So quickly I opened up my room door
Thinking to occupy the toilet before the other does

Great!!!!!!!!

Once I opened my door
Whatever welcomed me for this fine morning
was the "fresh air"
FRESH CHLORINE AIR indeed.......
Then I had to bare with the smell until I get back to my room...

Okay, That is not only one occasion
and I think is going to happen every morning now
and there are actually more and more things
started to piss me off

My friend there,
I know may be when you are back home
You have got your very efficient maid
which makes you nothing to do at home
also makes you cannot stand dirty

But the fact is
I dont find its dirty at all!!!!!
or May be I should ask

WHY DONT YOU JUST STAY IN TOILET WHOLE DAY
IF YOU REALLY SCARE PEOPLE DIRTY YOUR TOILET!!!

At this moment
I think I still can bare with you
I really dont want I will end up calling you

"Clean" for your surname
AND
"Freak" for your middle name

~THE END~

Busy

2008-07-14T22:32:00.002+08:00

As anyone that around me may have noticed,

I'm terribly busy recently......

Apart from being enrolled as a Full-time honours student,

I am also working almost full-time......

Now that I realised, it's not easy to survive by my own

without the hand from my family.......

Even that with Au$300 per week income

I can just barely survive..... -.-"

I finally experienced half a year that

totally financially independent from my family

I am very happy that I have gone through this

and more happier because they are sending me money soon (hehehe)

and I know there are more challenges & problems coming up

That's why

I will just be getting more and more busier than I was

I know I can cope with that

and I will do fine.

I am ready
to get busy...hahahaha

Shoes

2008-07-05T08:06:00.008+08:00

I was very angry!!!
It is because...
The base of my shoes was ripped!!!

Guess how much it cost me when I bought it?

RM 178+ ok!!!

and cant even last me for more than

6 months!!

So, after started working at 2 places,

finally I managed to just cover my own expenses

and survive by my own -.-"

and also because of the weather recently (rainy day)

and of course the slippery floor in the kitchen where I work

I decided to buy a pair of shoes...

hmm..

It better to buy a pair of safety boot

because I think it can last me longer

and the last pair I had last me for

2 years!!! (I wore it everyday!!!)

Shopping in the Launceston city (the mall)

For about 2 hours

My friend and I really have the same thought

Lauceston city has really
got nowhere to shop!!!

It is because there are really few shop selling shoes

and none of the design we think is nice

and worth buying..aihzz...how pathetic...

Luckily by the help of sister K

I managed to find this pair of safety boot

and if not mistaken

it was the most expensive

among all the boots....

Guess how much..?

AU$125!

SSSsssHHHhhhhh........

Dont talk so loud....

Because I dont wanna let my sisters know

otherwise I would have been killed....

ssssssshhhhhhhhh.......

this is my boot looks like from different angles

Leave me some comments about the price and/or the boot if you like
Thanks...
and please help me to keep secret too...ssshhhh...

Airport Pick up 2

2008-07-01T15:49:00.003+08:00

Ok, last time I think I stop at somewhere saying that I was waiting my housemate at the Launceston airport, here I continue..

That was a very busy morning at the airport with a very bad weather, almost all flights were delayed and of course so did my housemate flight and there were no more empty seats for me. Knowing that I'm gonna wait another one hour and two, I decide to find a place to sit down and have a good rest or may be a nap if I could...

So, I chose an empty place and sat on the floor and lean against the wall while reading the broucher at the same time (broucher for tourist, though im not tourist -.-" what to do, I was so so bored)...

Not long after I sat down, there was one group of people also walking towards me and sitting just next to me and I bet they are one family (5 adults and 3 kids). From what I observed, I think the couple are the parents of 3 kids and the other 1 guy and 2 young ladies are the uncle and aunts of the kids. The 3 kids were 2 boys and one girl, and their age (I think) range from 1-5 yo and the youngest is one of the boy who I think may be 1 or 2 yo.

Well, actually its just ordinary family and I really dint expect anything happens...After they sat down for awhile then the uncle and the aunts started to play with the kids, chasing around and shouting while i remained "concentrating" on my tourist broucher...

Suddenly the youngest boy ran towards me as chased by his uncle and stood in front of me, pointed me and turned to his uncle and said out a word: "book.."

"er..." I stunt for awhile..
"Whose kid is this?? Can someone "take care" of him??" I was thinking in mind
"yea, its a book..." the uncle said and bring the kid back to his dad side..

Though got back with his dad, the boy still kept peeping at me, and his dad also noticed that..
Well he is quite adorable and to avoid later his dad thinks that I was trying to bully his son, so I took the initiative and ask the boy,

"you want the book..?" at the same time, passing the broucher over his hand..
With a very shy look he grabbed the book and with a blink of eye he then become very active and trying to show off his "book" to his dad and mom...

Well, I then decided to rest for awhile by crimping myself together since it was very very cold that morning even in the building...I think after about 15 mins when I reopen my eyes, the family had gone (I thought they already board their flight)..

hmmm...I also think that I should just wake up and take abit of fresh air from outside and probably pay the car park before my housemate touched down. Once I got back from outside, I sat back where the family sat previously and surprisingly after awhile, the family came back...

hahaha...i think it was really fated, but that time I dint really bother and took out the other broucher again to kill my time while I was waiting...Ok ok actually I did bother abit, I saw the boy's eldest brother and sister started playing with their uncle and aunts again and eventually the the brother and the sister sat on the dad's and mom's lap...and bare in mind at that time, their dad and mom and I were actually sitting in a row.

So, back to the boy, seemed like he was overexcited playing with his uncle and then running across the corridor and passing by in front of his dad and mom and saw his brother and sister already got their own seats (their parents' lap). Without a second thought he also found himself a seat too, which is just next to his mom, ok that was me, he just sat on my lap without further thinking.. -.-"

Well, everyone started burst out laughing, he himself still didnt know what's going on (of course he is just 2 yo)...well since he dint know what's going on, so I hug him and hold his hand and ask him to say Hello to his family, from uncle, aunts then papa,mama...hahaha, finally after seeing his whole family, I think again he took about 5-10 seconds to realised something was not right..(from his action, I think he was thinking: why everyone is in front of me, then who the hell's lap am i sitting on!?!?!?)

AT LAST, he turned back and looked at me, realising that he was sitting on a stranger's lap, with a very shy look again, he quickly rush back to his dad and hide behind him..hahaha...and all of us couldnt stop laughing..well, they really board after awhile and left me to wait for my housemate for the rest of the 15 mins..

Anyway, I was really really happy in that half an hour, not only because the boy was very very cute and they also "accompanied" and most importantly he kept me "occupied" for that 30 mins..hahaha... =P

Present

2008-06-16T11:46:00.003+08:00

Thanks people who have been worrying about me.
If I tell you that I perfectly alright
That means I am lying......

But
of course I am standing still
I will get through this
So dont worry
I will be fine

As introduced by one of my friend
to watch this cartoon..well at least
I call it as cartoon

Kungfu Panda

It is very encouraging cartoon
and to me very funny also

at least it kept me laughing for one night
when i was really down...

Particularly love
one of the quote by "master wu gui"

"Yesterday is History
Tomorrow is Mystery
Today is a gift
That's why is called Present"

I will remember this quote deep in my heart
and
Thanks to "master wu gui"
Thanks to people around me
Thanks to my friend who asked me to watch this show

Thanks.

The End

2008-06-14T12:05:00.002+08:00

Everything will come to its end
Just that we always have no idea
How the ending will be

We all know that
As we grow older
the responsilibity we bare are
getting heavy and heavier

I still can remember about
10 years ago
I had done terrible thing
in my life

Back then
I regretted and kneed
before my mom and apologised
I was forgiven

Today
I felt exactly the same
but this time is not that
apology can bring back everything
or undo anything that had been done

I realised the resposibility now
is totally different
This is the time that I am really
in charge of myself and
I have to take it myself
No one can help

Well
At least at this point
I already accepted the fact
and I am too ready for the worst scenario
So...I will be fine
at least I believe it...

For anyone who may know about it
or for a moment who has worried about me
I apologise and I assure that this would be
the last entry of my series of emo articles...

Till then...
I think I will be fine and of course
hope so too...

Lost

2008-06-14T10:01:00.003+08:00

Today is Saturday, 14th June 2008
Finally is weekend, though is not the DAY yet
At least is closer to the DAY
That is the feeling:

If you want me to die,
Can you make it abit quicker?
You know waiting to die is not a good feeling

These few days I have been thinking
I have been very down
I kept sleeping

That's me
I sleep and eat whenever
I am down, depress, and stress
I think there might be some people really admire me
As I dont need any alcohol or drugs
to hocus myself while I can just pass out
on my bed whenever I dont wanna make any thinking
i.e., I just wanna avoid and try not to think too much

Although I have been upset for these few days
It doesnt affect my sleeping quality at all
I have very good sleep for every night

BUT
Every morning when I opened my eyes
The first thinking pops up is:
Why I am still here,
Why didnt I just keep sleeping may be forever?

The second thought is:
What do I need to do for today
since everything looks pointless to me at this point...

..................................................................................

I know I have been playing this game all this while
A game at very high risk with a very high bet
This game is like a domino effect
If there is anything happens in between
YOU ARE STUCKED and may be
YOU ARE SCREWED......

Now only I realised
How emulative I myself have been
Yet I couldnt accept the failure

May be I should reevaluate myself
What I actually able and not able to
What I actually could and couldnt do
What I should and shouldnt do and
What I must and musnt do...............

P/S: I myself couldnt possibly answer the questions
Should I be bothering others with the questions w/o
the answer still??
I shouldnt..................
I also dont wanna think
Just couldnt help it
The day is getting closer...

Because

2008-06-12T14:45:00.003+08:00

Eleven years ago

Because my grades wasnt the top one and
too wasnt as good as expected by others
I shed tears inside my heart and gave up
being an enthusiastic student...

Eight years ago

Because others said Science students are
generally smarter and might have brighter future
To show off my cleverness and
Without seriously considering the pros and cons
I chose to be in the Science stream and
end up with crappy results...

Five years ago

Because others said that the foundation course
in college are very easy to score
So I gave up my High school crappy results
and spent another year and money to study preU

Four years ago

Because others said study abroad is good and
Singapore has the best university with a nearest location
With a better preU result, I still couldnt get full scholarship
So I gave up my place in Singapore uni
and stop my study for a year...

Three years ago

Because I still strongly believe no matter how
studying abroad still pose a brighter future
So I tried by all means to get myself
out of the country to study....and
I just found out the amount of money spent
on my study can afford one house or
may be two cars...

One year ago

Because others said that my grades are good
and I am capable enough ...that's why I
should consider continue studying my honours
Again to show my capability, I decided to stay
without thinking any deeper of my real capability
few months after, I noticed that my judgement
on myself was so wrong....

Today

Because others said that since I have started
probably I should keep going...

I really have no idea why I always live
"Because" of the others

Because they are always right?
Because they see things clearer than me?
Or
It is just because I am always the one undecisive
and afraid to make mistake and useless....

So....
What would be my next step?
Can I once dont listen to the others and be my own master?

I dont know.....................

Give up

2008-06-12T08:56:00.002+08:00

世上没有不可能的事，
只要不放弃凡事都有希望。。。

The above two lines were one of the dialogs in the HK series, named "A Journey called life" that I have finished watching recently, carries the meaning of:

There is nothing impossible in this world,
there is always a hope if you dont give up.

Have you ever experienced the feeling of waiting?
Not the one that you wait for your friend,
but wait for the Judgement day and in fact,
If you know that it is gonna be a death sentence,
If you lose or unfortunate enough...

If again, I tell you:
If you are gonna give up whatever you have now or
Anything ahead of you, you wont have to worry about
the outcome of the Judgement BUT
Of course that comes with the guilt of being
Irresponsible, Dissapointment to others...

Certainly it is a dilemma,
Nervous
Scared
Worried
Hopeless
Helpless
Uncertain
Could it get any worse than that?

I have no answer
One thing for sure is
NO ONE would have the answer
Not until the Judgement Day

I am very tired
I wanna give up
Can I???

Airport pick up 1

2008-06-10T22:50:00.002+08:00

Actually I never thought of to blog something like this, but since this morning I think its the first ever time doing this and got quite frustrated about it, so here I am...

"What time is his flight arriving again? and what is his flight number" I asked my housemate A.

"I thought I have send you the details via msn, I dont have it now,
is that ok you call me back later, I need to check from my mobile........." A answered.

"No....I dint get any message from you, and I cant call you back because I'm running out of coins and my mobile battery is dead......nevermind you try to sms me the flight details....." I replied.

That was the conversation between me and my housemate A through a public phone at the airport, I was supposed to pick up one of my housemate, lets call him B. As we (A and I) know that B is coming back with his family and thus we try to offer help to pick him and his family up at the airport as we have been housemate for half a year.....

As I am the one who supposed to pick him up, but silly me never contacted B in person instead A was the middleman and passing me all the info by contacting with B. And A was told by B that his flight timing is 0925 as well as the flight number and hence that's also what I was told. Unfortunately, "due to the high-technology this day", the message sent by A to me via msn was lost in somewhere and that was the reason I need to call A when I reached at the aiport at 0930 and cant see B......

I was once very nervous and abit guilty of my 5 mins late because I thought that B could have gone to his motel with family already since they couldnt see me.....Well, until I received the sms from A about B's flight number......

Great!!!!!!!!!! Not only that I wasnt late, I was one hour early since the timing B told A was his departure time but not the arrival time!!!!! Ok, who the hell in this world when knowing people gonna pick you up would give the departure time instead of arrival time?!?!?! (Luckily, he did give the flight number and it wasnt an international flight... -.-")

Thing just couldnt get any "better" when you are waiting people from the depature time instead of arrival time in conjunction with a "good weather"; so another hour flight delayed......sigh.......

"Well, another day gone, looks like I wont have to go into lab today again...how great!" complained myself....

Within this 2 hours plus airport waiting, with the limited space in this small Launceston airport, I had no choice but to sit on the floor and lean against wall....trying to take a short rest....luckily there was something to keep me accupied...Thank god if not I think I would have already dead from bored....What was the thing??

Tell you next time.... =P

Malaysian Chinese

2008-06-10T21:13:00.004+08:00

No matter where you from, if you are chinese and you know mandarin,
you should have a look at the following comparison;
Comparatively speaking Malaysia chinese are highly educated and
have multiple language speaking skills; however very often it comes with
the side effect, just see the example given in the following, nevertheless
I am still proud to be Malaysian Chinese.......

马来西亚华人乃是晚清时广东省和闽南移民华侨的后代。
当地华人对华教的坚持、文化的传承是不留余力的。
我们堪称是海外华人中中文水准颇高的华人，但且看我们的普通话.............

> > > 中国人：今晚你有空吗？我没空！

> > > 马来西亚华人：今晚你得不得空？我不得空！

> > > 中国人：饼干受潮了…。

> > > 马来西亚华人：饼干'漏风'了…。

> > > 中国人：从上海去苏州要多少个小时？

> > > 马来西亚华人：从上海去苏州要几粒钟？

> > > 中国人：难道他不可以来吗？

> > > 马来西亚华人：你不给他不来啊？

> > > 中国人：周杰伦不喜欢穿内裤。

> > > 马来西亚华人：周杰伦不喜欢穿底裤。

> > > 中国人：我一向都是这样的

> > > 马来西亚人：我一路来都是这样的啦

> > > 中国人：我的手机掉进沟渠了。

> > > 马来西亚华人：我的手机掉进龙沟了。

> > > 中国人：这样你不是很不值得吗？

> > > 马来西亚华人：这样你'马'很不 '歹'？

> > > 中国人：你真是聪明！

> > > 马来西亚华人：你真是pan nai！(源自马来语pandai，聪明的意思)

> > > 中国人：你安静！

> > > 马来西亚华人：你diam diam！(源自马来语diam，安静的意思)

> > > 中国人：我要去银行取款。

> > > 马来西亚华人：我要去银行'按钱'。

> > > 中国人：为什么？

> > > 马来西亚华人：做么？

> > > 中国人：你很强~

> > > 马来西亚华人：你很够力~

> > > 中国人：明天也叫他一起去吧！

> > > 马来西亚华人：明天叫'埋'他一起去！

> > > 中国人：我很郁闷~~~

> > > 马来西亚华人：我很'显'（sien）啊~~~~（'显'比郁闷的境界更高）

> > > 中国人：你再说我就打你！

> > > 马来西亚华人：你再说我就hood你！（有点粗俗的）

> > > 中国人：你在说什么？

> > > 马来西亚华人：你在说sommok？

> > > 中国人：你不要令我丢脸~

> > > 马来西亚华人：你不要'下水'我~

> > > 中国人：真被你气到…。

> > > 马来西亚华人：被你炸到…。

> > > 中国人：你别乱来~

> > > 马来西亚华人：你表乱乱来~

> > > 中国人：你很无聊

> > > 马来西亚华人：你很废

> > > 中国人：XX你

> > > 马来西亚华人：Kanasai（意思是像大便一样，骂人的话）

> > > 中国人：迫切

> > > 马来西亚华人：bek chek

Ready to GET MARRIED?

2008-06-08T22:38:00.004+08:00

I was surfing the net the other day and found out this article that written by this women who just got married with her hubby about 1.5 years ago and wanted to share her point of view about marriage with the others...and here is the article...(again it was originally in chinese and I hope that my translation could truly represent what she really meant)

1. Your purpose to get married is:
A. want to reach some targets or get something out of the marriage
B. no choice as when getting older and also the pressure from parents
C. sick of being alone and wanna get Mr/Mrs right to form a family

1，你想结婚的目的是：
A.得到什么或者达到什么目的的筹码
B.年龄大了，家长催促，不得不尽快完婚
C.过够了单身生活，想寻找情投意合的人组建家庭

2. Which condition do you want to be after your marriage:
A. jobless, and no saving
B. parents dependent, hoping the parents still can give you financial support
C. have your own job, have certain amount of saving and at least be able to stand alone

2，你想结婚时的状态：
A.没有工作，没有积蓄
B.啃老族，父母很富有，可以给你经济上的援助
C.有自己的工作，有一定的积蓄，起码可以养活自己

If you have chosen C for both questions above, then you may continue read my comment following; however if you have chosen the other options or if you have more other option rather than the given A and B option, then I guess you would not even bother to continue reading it...

以上两个问题如果你都选择了C,那么朋友你们可以看以下的建议了，如果你有其他选项，那么你肯定对我以下的建议不屑一顾了——

1. Is your partner really be able to attract you for a life long time?
2. Is this relationship being blessed by both side parents and friends?
3. Have both of you got a future plan especially after getting married?
4. Have both of you being truthful to each other about your own weaknesses?
5. Are both your family background close to each other?
6. If you have other relationship before, have you clarified it with your Ex- before you get married?
7. Have you ever thought of you would really keep your promise as what you need to say that in the church "I will be with you forever no matter there is live; aged; illness; death; rich or poverty"
8. Would you take the divorce out from your choice of option whenever both of you have conflict?

If your answers for above questions are all strong positive, Congrats then, both of you can go for registration right now.
However, it's certainly not enough if you've only got above as your criteria and wish to have a life happily ever after like in the fairy tale...

1，对方身上是不是有足够吸引你的地方，那种优点不会因为时间的改变而谈化？
2，你跟对方的恋爱得到了家人和朋友的祝福了吗？
3，你们对将来的生活有一定的打算了吗？
4，你们有没有坦诚地把自己已知的不足和缺点告诉对方了？
5，你们双方的家庭背景是不是接近？
6，如果以前你谈过恋爱，跟现在的他（她）结婚时，是不是跟以前恋爱对象撤底断绝联系？
7，在说出那句“无论生老病死，贫困疾病，我都愿意陪伴你”时，你是否想象过，如果不幸真的发生，你会兑现诺言吗？
8，你们能做到，不把离婚作为解决矛盾的其中一个选项吗？

如果以上回答都是肯定的，那么恭喜你们，你们可以去注册结婚了！
但是，想要结婚后过的顺利幸福，上面这些还是远远不够的。

If you are woman:

如果你是女人：

1. Would you willing to be a perfect wife and mother, as well as being financially independent? As you need to aware that it is not easy to be a woman, but much harder to be a good one indeed.

1，你愿意承担相夫教子，又有独立经济的繁重生活吗？
要知道，做女人难，做好女人更难啊

2. Would you be able to treat your hubby family as good as your own family?
One thing you need to clear about is mentality of men can also be very exquisite and they will really feel appreciated and love you even more if they know that you are very nice to his family.

2，你能真心对待丈夫的家人，就像尊敬疼爱自己的家人一样吗？
要知道，男人的心也是很细腻的，你对他的家人好，他看在眼里，暖在心里，他会用实际行动感激你的通情达理的

3. Could you be the one who dress up very nice by spending the least when you are young; be the one who has connotation of wisdom and goodness when your are at your middle aged and of course be the one with kindliness when you are old.
Which man doesnt want his wife be one of those who are really femininity and also very smart who can always give them surprise and feeling of freshness...

3，你能做到，年轻时会打扮漂亮但不奢侈，中年时有智慧内涵但要善良吗？当然，老年时大部分人都是慈爱滴：）
要知道，对于男人来说，自己的老婆既温柔体贴，聪明能干，又让他保持是觉得新鲜感，那点不比外面的女人强？有妇如此，夫复何求？

4. Sometimes you really do need to control the level of your coquetry as sometimes men may also need a wise person to discuss with their problems

4，你能把握好撒娇的尺度，不是任何时候都可以撒娇任性，胡搅蛮缠？
要知道，男人理性的时候，需要的是个智者与自己商谈

5. Would you still be able to happily serve your guest even just had a very bad quarrel with your husband?
You need to aware that men usually put their pride at the first place, please do respect your husband and your family as well.

5，你能做到关起门跟老公吵架，敞开门笑对宾朋吗？
要知道，男人总会把面子看得很重要，请学会尊重自己的老公，也是对自己家庭的尊重

6. Are you capable enough to be the accountant for him? Very often, men are responsible to earn the money for the women to manage, you will really need to be a good one if you wish to have a better life

6，你能做到家里财政精打细算，老公钱包不缺零钱吗？
要知道，男人是耧钱的耙子，女人是管钱的匣子，日子过得好不好，就要看这笔账你管不管得了
7. Would you be able not to compare any other men with your own husband?
Men will be hurt if you keep comparing them to other guys; no matter how good other people are, they are still not yours.

7，你能做到不要拿别的男人跟自己的老公作比较吗？
要知道，别的男人再好，也不是你的，教训老公拿别的男人作参考，那就是打自己嘴巴，男人会很受伤，别人也只能说是你自己挑的

If you are men:

如果你是男人：

1. Would you be able to give your hand to your wife when they are busy with the housework; even with just passing a piece of tissue paper? You need to know that women are doing this for the men and what they really want is just the understanding from their husband.

1，你能做到在妻子劳碌家务时，伸一把手，哪怕是帮忙递一张餐巾纸吗？
要知道，女人要男人帮忙做家务，不是为了什么都要公平，她只是从心里希望丈夫能体贴的知道她的辛苦，所以，男人们请把帮老婆做家务养成一种习惯

2. Would you be able to just sit beside your wife whenever they are complaining, crying and just to be her listener? A lot of time they are not asking you to come out any solution but what they really need is just a listener, so be the one for them, patient one indeed..

2，你能做到在妻子不满唠叨甚至哭泣时，不要争辩，只是静静的陪着她吗？
要知道，大多数时候，女人唠叨和哭诉并不是要你解决什么，她只是需要个倾诉对象，所以，请你温柔的抱抱她，做个有耐心的倾听者

3. Could you not shouting on her and let her to be alone even when she was the one who did something wrong? You need to know that sometimes the space in their mind really narrow, to be a responsible guy and not letting anything bad or sad happens, please do not leave them behind, no matter what happens..

3，你能做到在妻子犯错误时，不要对她大吼大叫后，抛下她，自己愤走吗？
要知道，女人有时心空很小的，一个想不开就会作出傻事，所以，吵得再怎么凶，也请不要抛下她一个人

4. Would you be able to keep in mind of your wife's wish so that you can give her surprise every now and then. Sometimes the women can be very impractical, so try not to be too stingy with all the suprise, it will really benefit your marriage in return...

4，你能做到时不时地记住妻子的一个小愿望，再时不时地给她个小小的惊喜吗？
要知道，女人都会有点爱慕虚荣，不要吝啬对自己妻子的关注，一个又一个小小的惊喜，会让她对你回报一生坚贞不移的爱

5. Could you reject all the appoinments and go home early to be a responsible father to change diaper for your own kid? your friends may say that you are scared of your wife, but I need to understand that a true friend doesnt make fun of people who are taking responsibility of his family.

5，你能做到推掉朋友的应酬，回家替孩子换尿布吗？
或许你怕朋友说你重色轻友，或许你怕朋友说你是妻管严，但你要明白，真正的朋友不会嘲笑你对家庭的责任的

6. Could you remain the happiest mood whenever you return home?
You need to know that men are usually the main cast in the family and whenever you bring back your bad mood, you have just brought the same thing to the whole family

6，你能做到每次回家之前，都换上和颜悦色地面具吗？
要知道，女人或许是家庭的主旋律，可男人才是一个家的主题啊，不要因为自己的不顺心而影响了一家人，因为你是男人；也不要排斥在妻子怀里撒娇抱怨甚至痛哭，因为你是她的男人

7. Could you take care of your own health as much as you care about your family health?
As the main cast for the family, if you are down, so does the family...

7，你能做到爱护自己的健康就像爱护家人的健康一样吗？
要知道，顶梁柱垮了，家，也就没了

Lastly, share with you guys another thought here:
Marriage is no longer the graveyard of love, you may find there is much lesser of excitement after getting married, however dont you find that the love between both of you is turning from couple to family love?? You may feel warm from friendship love, motivated by couple love; but the most valuable one is love within a family. Please pay more attention for marriages as in dont simply wanna divorce for a small reason and we need to take the responsibility not only for ourselves but also to our parents, and kids. There is nothing easy in our life, and you really need to learn by hard to get a better one. Anway wish all the couples would have a best life ever after and believe in what you are doing now and keep that up! Cheers~

最后，再送给朋友们一句话，永远不要再说婚姻是爱情的坟墓，结婚后，或许少了恋爱时的激情，可是你们不觉得，爱情在慢慢变成亲情吗？友情给人温暖，爱情给人动力，可最难割舍，谱写人间最温柔最感人乐章的，却是亲情阿！请正视和重视自己的婚姻，请不要说大不了离婚，也请不要把婚姻做成某种筹码，请对我们自己负责，对我们的父母子女负责，尽管生活不会一直风调雨顺，就像妈妈教育的那样——在一起过一辈子呢，过日子哪那么容易啊！在此也祝愿有情人终成眷属，你暂时的忍任和寂寞，换取幸福而美满的婚姻，相信你会在接下来的路上事实做出正确的决定！

P/S: This is the translated version as I said hopefully can truly represent what she actually wanna tell in chinese, one thing have to mention that is whatever she has been suggesting not truly reflecting my mind also, I just find it is good and wanted to share with all of you...

Fullstop

2008-06-04T20:11:00.002+08:00

Up to Wednesday 4th of June 2008...at last I can finally draw a BIG BIG fullstop for these 3.5 years of Biomedical course...

I know that I dint do it very well and might even need to repeat for one of it...but at least stage I really couldnt care more about it...and finally I shall say that I can now concentrate more on my hounour study...

So, What actually have I learnt in these 3.5 years?
I seriously have no idea...
May be I know a little more about
electrolytes;
hormones;
enzymes;
white blood cells;
red blood cells;
bacteria;
virus...

than other people do...
but that doesnt really make me any special or superior than others...
Is that really what I expected since 4 years ago before I chose this course?

For myself to question...
For myself to find out...

Answer

2008-05-31T19:52:00.004+08:00

In the Maths class, the Maths teacher directed a question to
her primary one student who wasnt paying attention to her lesson:

If there are 5 birds on the branch, and you shoot one of them
with your BB gun, how many birds do you think will be left?

With a quick response, the student answer:

There will be no birds left because once I shoot,
all birds will be flying away...

The teacher replied:

The correct answer should be 4 birds left on the branch;
but I do like the way that you think...

So, the student responded back:

Can I ask you back another question?
In the park, there were 3 ladies eating the ice-cream
The first one was licking the ice-cream;
The second one was biting the corn;
The third one was sucking the ice-cream,
Which one of them do you think is married?

The teacher was pondering for a while and said:

I guess the one sucking the ice-cream...?

The student give her the answer:

The correct answer should be the one with the wedding ring;
but I do like the way you think...

The morale of story:

Very often, there isnt an absolute answer for every single
particular question, so dont afraid of making mistake or
dont make the final judgement to all circumstances too quick,
there could have more possiblities out there, try to think differently!

Surfing..Here in Home

2008-05-25T19:53:00.003+08:00

Actually wanted to put the entry title as Stealing...hmm..dont really think i was stealing..so changed it to surfing...I was surfing my friend's blog and found out this...just wanna post up here and share with any malaysian here..yea..i miss home T.T

11个笑话让你领悟人生

2008-05-25T12:24:00.003+08:00

1、父子二人经过五星级饭店门口，看到一辆十分豪华的进口轿车。儿子不屑地对他的父亲说：「坐这种车的人，肚子里一定没有学问！」父亲则轻描淡写地回答：「说这种话的人，口袋里一定没有钱！」（注：你对事情的看法，是不是也反映出你内心真正的态度？）

2、晚饭后，母亲和女儿一块儿洗碗盘，父亲和儿子在客厅看电视。突然，厨房里传来打破盘子的响声，然后一片沉寂。是儿子望着他父亲，说道：「一定是妈妈打破的。」「你怎么知道？」「她没有骂人。」（注：我们习惯以不同的标准来看人看己，以致往往是责人以严，待己以宽。）

3、有两个台湾观光团到日本伊豆半岛旅游，路况很坏，到处都是坑洞。其中一位导游连声抱歉，说路面简直像麻子一样。说而另一个导游却诗意盎然地对游客说：诸位先生女士，我们现在走的这条道路，正是赫赫有名的伊豆迷人酒窝大道。」（注：虽是同样的情况，然而不同的意念，就会产生不同的态度。思想是何等奇妙的事，如何去想，决定权在你。）

4、同样是小学三年级的学生，在作文中说他们将来的志愿是当小丑。中国的老师斥之为：「胸无大志，孺子不可教也！」带外国的老师则会说：「愿你把欢笑带给全世界！」（注：身为长辈的我们，不但容易要求多于鼓励，更狭窄的界定了成功的定义。）

5、在故宫博物院中，有一个太太不耐烦地对她先生说：「我说你为甚么走得这么慢。原来你老是停下来看这些东西。」（注：有人只知道在人生的道路上狂奔，结果失去了观看两旁美丽花朵的机会。）

6、妻子正在厨房炒菜。丈夫在她旁边一直唠叨不停：慢些。小心！火太大了。赶快把鱼翻过来。快铲起来，油放太多了！把豆腐整平一下！「哎厎」妻子脱口而出，「我懂得怎样炒菜。」「你当然懂，太太，」丈夫平静地答道：「我只是要让你知道，我在开车时，你在旁边喋喋不休，我的感觉如何。」（注：学会体谅他人并不困难，只要你愿意认真地站在对方的角度和立场看问题。）

7、理由充份

一辆载满乘客的公共汽车沿着下坡路快速前进着，有一个人後面紧紧地追赶着这辆车子。一个乘客从车窗中伸出头来对追车子的人说：“老兄！算啦，你追不上的！”“我必须追上它，”这人气喘吁吁地说：“我是这辆车的司机！”(注：有些人必须非常认真努力，因为不这样的话，後果就十分悲惨了！然而也正因为必须全力以赴，潜在的本能和不为人知的特质终将充份展现出来。）

8、原来如此

甲：「新搬来的邻居好可恶，昨天晚上三更半夜、夜深人静之时然跑来猛按我家的门铃。」乙：「的确可恶！你有没有马上报警？」甲：「没有。我当他们是疯子，继续吹我的小喇叭。」（事出必有因，如果能先看到自己的不是，答案就会不一样在你面对冲突和争执时，先想一想是否心中有亏，或许很快就能释怀了。）

9、误会

某日，张三在山间小路开车，正当他悠哉地欣赏美丽风景时，突然迎面开来一辆货车，而且满囗黑牙的司机还摇下窗户对他大骂一声：“猪！” 张三越想越纳闷，也越想越气，於是他也摇下车窗回头大骂：“你才是猪！” 才刚骂完，他便迎头撞上一群过马路的猪。（不要错误的诠释别人的好意，那只会让自己吃亏，并且使别人受辱。在不明所以之前，先学会按捺情绪，耐心观察，以免事後生发悔意。）

10、後生可畏

小男孩问爸爸：“是不是做父亲的总比做儿子的知道得多？” 爸爸回答：“当然啦！” 小男孩问：“电灯是谁发明的？” 爸爸：“是爱迪生。” 小男孩又问：“那爱迪生的爸爸怎麽没有发明电灯？” （很奇怪，喜欢倚老卖老的人，特别容易栽跟斗。权威往往只是一个经不起考验的空壳子，尤其在现今这个多元开放的时代。）

11、不必紧张

小明洗澡时不小心吞下一小块肥皂，他的妈妈慌慌张张地打电话向家庭医生求助。医生说：“我现在还有几个病人在，可能要半小时後才能赶过去。” 小明妈妈说：“在你来之前，我该做甚麽？” 医生说：“给小明喝一杯白开水，然後用力跳一跳，你就可以让小明用嘴巴吹泡泡消磨时间了。” （takeiteasy，放轻松放轻松些，生活何必太紧张？事情既然已经发生了，何不坦然自在的面对。担心不如宽心，穷紧张不如穷开心。）

出自澳洲中文网,本贴地址：
http://www.ozchinese.com/bbs/viewthread.php?tid=151847

Googling

2008-05-24T10:07:00.015+08:00

This day you can do all sort of things and search any answers by just a single click on the web...I think the most convenient and popular search engines are google, youtube, wikipedia...and this morning as usual, wasnt in mood to continue my assignment but googling all the while...and got some photos to share...

Short of income? want somemore spare money and trying to look for a job??
Try this:

So...What is the worst job you have ever had???

Try and look at these...

Do you think the cartoon was funny??

Try and look at some other real stuffs...

Things just couldnt get any worse if you've got a good collegue...

So...would you go for a job like this especially you are really running out of cash??

And you think you still have the worst experience ever in your life??
Think twice...may be you should be feeling thankful by now...

Loner

2008-05-20T20:56:00.016+08:00

The story begins like this: Once there was a loner, in a very good morning, he went working by his brother in law's car...as soon as he reached at his workplace, unwillingly he needed to get down from the car and with his not very concious mind in this early morning after he had got down from the car, he slammed the door of the car and.....this is the outcome..................

Well, very good!!! Since after that event, this loner had this friend to stayed close and accompanied with all the while for 3 months...that was the blood clot...So during this 3months especially for the first month, with this friend around, the loner cant really do much thing when there was to do with water... =.=
So, what was the most entertaining activity to do while he was locked up in a square box facing 4 walls?? That's it, photography...but funny thing is this loner likes to have more interaction with things around him, so he invited some of his other friends in the box to join him....the first activity: trying to open the door!!! well....it didnt work...sadly....

Never mind, the loner hardly give up especially when he is bored...so....he tried something else, the cupboard...he tried to push or lift it up since it looked rather small....but obviously, he failed again....

Well, a little bit of dissapointment but still alright, so this time the loner became not so ambitious...and he found out that something was hung on the wall...so, the naughty loner wanted to mess around with the bag....Arghhhhh, it stuck there....this time the loner failed again....zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Ok, FINE!!! The loner was quite upset now...and he spotted something rather smaller this time!!! hmm...may be this one he could mess around with....that was his thought....OMG....it was rather firm than previous one!!! (Come on, it is the electrical plug..of course!!!!) So no doubt, he was really not happy now, not until he could find something he really could play with....Hang on, what was the red and blue color thingy??....hehehe..... ^^

It was the rubbin bin!!! Yes...he tried...it moved!!! so abit more..bit more and more!!!

Okay! Very good, the loner at last was satisfied with his ability to move something from his imagination...so he decided to ask the bin to stay at that position for a while...until....

Until...? Of course until the loner was scolded by his sister for putting the rubbin bin in the middle of the room...sigh...so eventually he still had to push it back to the original position...well...end of story....

*Why do people want to talk to you while you are not in mood talking?

*Sorry I am just not in the mood to talk recently......

风雨同路

2008-05-18T08:56:00.006+08:00

歌手：光良专辑：我就是我

风雨同路

并著肩迎接著挑战

贡献彼此泪和汗从不伪装
不要害怕你走得缓慢
总有一天会到
下一个幸福的车站

风雨路
我们携手共渡
三色石
牵绊不了进度
凭著各自坚持与领悟
感受互相扶持的幸福

漫长路
庆幸你我同步
三叶草
陪伴著不却步
不同理念和方式互补

铺造一条
属于我们骄傲的道路

并著肩迎接著挑战
贡献彼此泪和汗从不伪装
不要害怕你走得缓慢
总有一天会到
下一个幸福的车站

风雨路
我们携手共渡
三色石
牵绊不了进度
凭著各自坚持与领悟
感受互相扶持的幸福

漫长路
庆幸你我同步
三叶草
陪伴著不却步
不同理念和方式互补

铺造一条属于
我们骄傲的道路

风雨路
我们携手共渡
三色石
牵绊不了进度
凭著各自坚持与领悟
感受互相扶持的幸福

漫长路
庆幸你我同步
三叶草
陪伴著不却步
不同理念和方式互补

铺造一条属于
我们骄傲的道路

朋友，无论日子有多难熬，生活有多么不愉快的事，时间还是会过去。。。让我们一起风雨同路，让岁月把这一切给冲淡，而我们也都会活得更坚强，更勇敢！！！永远都支持你。。的朋友。。。

Love~

2008-05-17T16:07:00.004+08:00

It was a fine morning, just that I dint sleep well for the previous night. I hate it when I know that there is an assignment to rush for and need catching up with my labwork at the same time. As usual, I went to lab and pretending that I was actually doing something rather than not showing up my face for the lab...So, almost another day gone, and again I dint actually feel much work had been done...I went back to my office and trying to tidy up my messy working bench (haizz how good to have your own office if you dont have to share it with others).

Unintentionally, when I was flipping through the notes, I saw a long buried Unit outline for the Statistic unit...and it reminded me that I actually need to do some readings and research before I can discuss with the lecturer on the next day and start my assignment...

How great, which means that I have to go to library and start researching before it closes (just cant understand why I feel that they close earlier especially closer to winter time, I bet probably daytime is shorter that give me this feeling)!!!

Statistic?!?! Do you have any idea how much I hate maths especially Statistic!!! This subject can never ever make any sense in my study life...well I still have to study and pass for the final and of course for this assignment too...

So, I went to the second floor of the library and looked up the the shelf...Great!!! I forgot to bring along the Unit outline and god knows that what type of information do I need for the assignment. Owing to my laziness, and of course my smartness too, to make it one round, I brought as many reference books as I possibly could from the shelf to the first floor where I can get access of the computer and internet; so that I could recheck the Unit outline via school website...

You think it is easy to get one vacant computer in the library, Certainly not! So, since I grabbed this chance, of course I wasnt that dumb only checking up the shool website, but also my hotmail, yahoo mail, my blog, other people's blog, frienster, facebook etc etc.....(it is endless of exploring anyway for internet..)

Of course while you are surfing internet using library computer, you wouldnt be just starring at the monitor all times..I mean who will actually do that especially there is only glass wall that you can see through outside people walking pass...okay, at least I will keep looking around...it's just my habbit...

So...I looked around while waiting the web page to load, first time, second time...fifth time, I saw her...Who??

hahahaha..I dont know her, but looked to me she is japanese, actually just sitting opposite of me, well she was also using the computer...Based on my experience, being 2 years staying on campus and mixed well with people from different countries, she gave me this feeling that she is Japanese and is now studying in English Language Centre for her English course.

To answer my curiousity, I peeped on her monitor, hmmm..it was like some kind of journal, I do realise that some of the English class they attend require them to read the journal and train them to write report from it...Hence, I think my prediction was right...

Then I looked back at my screen...I dont understand either, she seemed to have this attraction to me...

So, when the web was loading...I gave myself excuse to look up once again....Okay, this time I became braver and actually started to observe her...

She is not pretty, normal looking, you can claim her cute, but not really to me; however she gave me this feeling of attraction, may be her blurness and her facial expression when she was concentrating on her work...then she started to take out her digital dictionary...

I quickly looked back to my monitor just in case she found out that I was actually observing her...but from her expression I can tell that she is not that observant...at least worse than me...I think...

Dont think that I am peverted, I just like to observe people especially they can actually attract me...So, when the third time I looked up again...Great!!! I can once again assure my assumption, her eye lids was getting heavy and heavier and she was falling asleep in front of the computer!!! hahaha...I find that she is cute in this way...ooppss, just realised that it was closing to 4.30pm that I needed to go working........arghh, no choice but to log off my computer and heading to work...Well, another day gone...

Second morning, right!!! My housemate went to class earlier and suddenly I lost my urge to get out from my warm warm bed and go for class...Okay 5mins to 9.00am I am gonna late, walking pass the library, I saw her again, exactly the same place using the same computer, just that today I was passing by from her back; today she was with the white jacket, a small red hat and a red frame spectacles.....hmmm...I think I prefer her when she is not with glasses though I think is nice to put that on also...Oh my god, can you please quit daydreaming!!!...okok...run for the class!!!

Oh my my another boring day after the class, what again except going to lab and drawing the blood and extrating my DNA and RNA?!?! Crap!!! who actually bother how much DNA or RNA can you extract from the blood?? cDNA or whatever mRNA...heck man...

Third day, today is friday, well I made an appoinment to run the labwork together with for the real-time PCR, cant be bothered to go lab early in the morning, in fact who will go there at this freezing weather?? I decided to hide inside my blanket for another hour....it was about 11 plus in the morning, well closer to noon, hey! I saw her again!!! Same place indeed!!!! Like my housemate quote, I was actually secretly excited, (hahaha..I also dont know the reason) may be it was because the coincidence or shall I say I could feel the FATE??

Today her appearance similar as previous day, just that today she was more 'energytic', I think probably her report is gonna due soon, and once again her rushing, and blurness of facial expression...attracted me...But without any hestitation, I dint come out with second thought, though a little excitement, I kept walking to my destination--Lab and finished my another boring laboratory experiment day.....

The day after the third, the fourth the fifth...until today, I dint meet her back again at the same place....and I think that suppose the end of the story??

So, after the long long grandmother story, does everyone enjoy reading it?

What do you think about the story above?
Would you call it first sight love?
How would you define the meaning of love??
Love as in boys and girls relationship...Anyone can give me your view??

This entry actually I wanted to dedicate to one of my friend but I think that I could also ask for more opinions from any of the professional out there and of course share one of my experience or I should say my observations recently.

To me, there is no such thing called first sight love, how can you love someone that frm the first eye sight without knowing the person?!?! It doesnt even sound logical...I think that was the idea that the movie "Enchated" trying to bring us...

So, Love is like wind like the internet, the networking, you cant see it you cant touch it; it is very illusory but it is actually existed, you can only feel it...

To maintain the love, it is also important to have dual interaction; it is just like planting a flower, you need sunshine, water, fertiliser, fresh air...you cant lack of anyone of them and do you think that it is possible to clap your hand with one palm??

Ask yourself,
1. What's the problem now?
2. What do you actually want from the relationship??
3. If your plant now is infected by bugs, are you gonna to fix the problem??

Question 1 & 2 you can keep it for your own, it just leads yourself for Question 3. So do you think it is worth to fix the problem, no matter how bad your plant's condition is?

If yes, why hestitate to think so much? Just go for it, it means that someone is actually standing at your side and both of you have faith on each other hence nothing can separate you apart...

If no, so again why hestitate to think so much? Just let it go, in our life there are many many times we need to be strong enough to make harsh decision, though sometimes is not really what you want but if you know that it is only solution, for everyone's good may be...

Of course it always sounds easier than practise it, but you just have to do it no matter how, be strong and I know you are, pull yourself out of it, see this thing more objectively identify the problem, and most important thing is...ask yourself: What do you want??? and lastly BE BRAVE TO MAKE YOUR DECISION & YOU ARE STRONG ENOUGH TO DO THAT!!!

A sad story?!

2008-05-13T22:50:00.005+08:00

This is again from a forwarded email, well anyone there who doesnt know chinese, I am so sorry to tell you that this story would be meaningless if it is in English...so no point of translating it...those who can read chinese, enjoy yea~
Thanks mushroom for the mail again...

很久很久以前

在老虎国有一对兄妹他们各自身怀特殊的能力

哥哥有着一对千里眼能够看到极远方的微小事物

妹妹有着一对顺风耳能够听到极其细小的声音

他们从小一起长大一起快乐一起悲伤

闲暇时候他们总会跑到后山的山丘上

哥哥眺望千里外的遥远国度

对着妹妹述说着那里各种千奇百怪的事物

妹妹聆听微风传来的讯息

对着哥哥吟唱着远方教堂传来的天使般的歌声

或许是长时间在一起的缘故他们爱上了彼此

虽然他们知道这段爱情是不被允许的

但他们就是无法控制自己

终于他们拋开了一切束缚开始不顾一切地享受着爱情

然而纸终究是包不住火的

两人的关系被发现了父亲大发雷霆母亲以泪洗面

街坊邻居对两人指指点点

两人拼命证明对彼此纯真的感情但是

由于道德观念的枷锁两人终究不被允许

已经无路可走了

为了证明对彼此至死不渝的爱

哥哥弄瞎了自己的眼睛

妹妹弄聋了自己的耳朵

不为什么只因为他们认为既然得不到众人的祝福

那有这能力又有何用反正他们两人是得不到幸福的一对

很久很久以后

有个音乐家听到了这个凄美动人的爱情故事

大受感动百感交集下他谱出了一曲感人肺腑的曲子

我偶然间听到了这曲子不禁悲从中来

真能令人悲叹兄妹两人可歌可泣的遭遇呢!!

很可惜我没有它的CD也没办法在这里让大家听到它优美的旋律

我只能就我所记得歌词的部分post上来和大家分享

希望你们也能体会出其中的感动
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"两只老虎两只老虎

跑得快跑得快

一只没有眼睛一只没有耳朵

真奇怪真奇怪 "

[是不是感动到说不出话来呢] =.=''''

Distance

2008-05-13T21:13:00.006+08:00

I received this forwarded email from my friend, "a long-lost" friend indeed, she was my primary schoolmate and I was quite surprised because we dint even contact each other since then and recently I dont know how she got my friendster but somehow she found that...anyway that was not the point, the point is I received this email from her and I thought that it was some kind of junk mail but after I read it, I found that it was very meaningful and when I looked back to my friends' list...then only I saw her nick.....well, the actual version of the story was in chinese and with the pictures of cartoon, but dont know why but I think I prefer to translate it myself for this entry...

One day, there was a very smart professor rising a question to his students:

"Why do you think people shout at each other when they are angry or get mad?"

One of the students broke the long silence with the answer:

"It is because we lost our calmness when we were angry, that's why we shout"

So the professor asked again:

"Why did you shout still even the person was just right next to you? Why couldnt you soften the tone??"

No one seemed to be able to give a satisfactory answer to professor even though with a long discussion, and at last the professor explained:

"When two people are angry, their hearts and minds are separated far apart from each others, in order to bridge the gap in between, they think that they need to shout at each other; however the louder they shout, the larger the gaps are and the distance between the two minds and hearts are getting farther and farther....."

The professor continued:

"Whereas it is just the other way around when two people are in love, not only they dont have to shout, even just whispering is good enough for them to communicate with each other. It is because at this moment the two pieces of minds and heart are so close to each other and the more they whisper the more they feel in love; at the end of the days they dont even need anymore languages and even an eye contact is good enough for them to know well of each other, at this stage the distances between are actually long gone....."

At last, the professor concluded that:

"Therefore, when two people are arguing, it is important that not to let the hearts being separated far apart especially by saying something is hurting or with the increased and harsh tone; the scenario would be better if you let go at that particular moment and have a good chat with each other when distances are getting close back in short future..."

My friends there, having a bad days with friends or your partners recently??
Try to let go, dont fight or shout at each other when you are blinded with the madness and your anger,

Calm youselves down and have a good chat with them to bring back the distances...

Good Luck and All the best!!!

Strangers like me

2008-05-13T11:37:00.004+08:00

Whatever you do, I'll do it too

Show me everything and tell me how

It all means something

And yet nothing to me

I can see there's so much to learn

It's all so close and yet so far

I see myself as people see me

Oh, I just know there's something bigger out there

I wanna know, can you show me

I wanna know about these strangers like me

Tell me more, please show me

Something's familiar about these strangers like me

Every gesture, every move that she makes

Makes me feel like never before

Why do I have

This growing need to be beside her

Ooo, these emotions I never knew

Of some other world far beyond this place

Beyond the trees, above the clouds

I see before me a new horizon

I wanna know, can you show me

I wanna know about these strangers like me

Tell me more, please show me

Something's familiar about these strangers like me

Come with me now to see my world

Where there's beauty beyond your dreams

Can you feel the things I feel

Right now, with you

Take my hand

There's a world I need to know

I wanna know, can you show me

I wanna know about these strangers like me

Tell me more, please show me

Something's familiar about these strangers like me

...I wanna know

Sometimes,

we just feel that

we are not truthful enough

even with our own

We just keep lying to ourselves

and dint want to tell the truth

to ourselves.

Yet

the truth is still out there

we all know that

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妈妈, 我爱你。。

2008-05-12T16:35:00.003+08:00

母亲节刚过，身在海外的我，好想家，好想念妈妈哦。。。
母亲节的那天，大家都怎么庆祝啊？？

Au$ 440

2008-05-06T20:10:00.004+08:00

Wouldnt you feel excited over the money piles up like how this photo showed in front of you??

Especially it is in Aussie Dollars but not in Malaysian Ringgit, not that I look down of my own contry currency but true enough that the value of Aussie Dollar is higher than Malaysia Ringgit...3 times indeed...

Who will reject the money if it is sent to the front door of your house??

I still can recall that the first time I spent Aussie Dollars was at the Melbourne airport, when i was first time need to transit to Tasmania, my luggage was overweight for about 10 Kg and the counter lady insisted that my laptop was my handcarry luggage and so my actual handcarry luggage need to be checked in and eventuate my total check in luggage become 20 Kg.Ok, great! Instead of being charge overweight for Au$70, I was charged Au$ 140 (Au$7 per Kg)... =.=''

So who will actually feel happy if you pay something more than you dont deserve to?? Until not long ago, my friend told me that not only I can bring my laptop, I can bring one more handcarry luggage with me too...so was I being cheated or what?!?!?!

Anyway, recently I tried my very best to make money, through whatever means that I possibly can, so that I can pile up the money like that too...well, the truth tells me that when money comes in, it has it own way to go out no matter how hard i tried...in fact more than I can imagine...so this time is Au$440!!! Well, my friend there who will never ever read this, I just wanna shout out load here: You may think it is nothing for you but it is about 90% of total that I have got in my current account!!!!!

I felt like I am really a dumbass to deserve this kind of treatment sometimes...Can someone tell me the truth?!?!?! Is there a fair judgement existing in this world at all....??? I doubt ...

I've got no choice but to pay you and try my very best to earn it back by my own!!!

Funny -.-'''

2008-04-27T21:46:00.003+08:00

So what’s the purpose of having it written in English alphabet?

This is the post I read from yowkien blog, one single statement but actually was good enough for me burst out laughing for 20 seconds before I could calm myself down...

May be you might think that my reaction was abit too exaggerated, but it was true reaction coz at first I was starring at this picture and couldnt figure out what so special about it that my friend needs to post it on his blog until I saw his statement underneath the picture...

Dont you find sometimes people can just do funny thing as in pointless thing without noticing by themselves?? Sometimes when you do something, you will find absolutely perfect and no doubt about it...nonetheless it might look totally pointless to the others....

So...

What's the purpose to put the alphabets underneath the Chinese characters??
To give help for those who cant pronounce the chinese characters properly...or
To let foreigners know how to pronounce library in chinese...or......................
..................???????? whatever the reason is....it doesnt make any sense to me...

So...Dont ask me too, coz I also couldnt figure it out, probably is just another case of funny thing happens...Well, people do funny things every now n then...

Aging

2008-04-17T21:08:00.003+08:00

Wouldnt you feel abit scared or worried about the term that I put for my title today?!?! Certainly, I feel it now...really somehow (apparently I dont know how) I feel that it's taking place in a very single of my cells......

It was just after another session of badminton, and as what I expected (probably anyone of friends that know me also expected) I still got my ass kicked. Of course, I've never been to any of professional training before, actually I should feel proud of myself for being in the game and kept up with their pace. Well, I have to admit that I am not playing as well as what I used to when I was in my high school, but that is the whole point!!! I feel like I am aging!!!!!

The other day when I was chatting with one of my female friend (who is about the same age as me) about this topic, of course throughout the conversation I can sense that what really concern her about the aging are actually the wrinkles on the face, and probably skin colour...That's the different between male and female, not only physically we are different, and I think most of you will agree that our mind is also much differ from one another too...

As what really concern me about aging is my strength, my stamina, my memory, and most importantly I think would be the old injuries in each of the inches of my body...my neck, my shoulder, my back, my knees, my ankle, my tibia......hahaha..I think as far as I name it I got it....

Starting of this year, I can sense that my ability of memorisation, my stamina and strength when I played sports, they are just gradually degrading.....Especially after my bachelor degree, after 3-4 years never play for 'hardcore' sports... is just a feeling that my body is asking me to stop...and he doesnt wanna go any further...Considering my age now...I think is really ashamed....

Shall I stop?? Probably not...I think instead of hestitate and worrying around, I should train myself up...hahaha...just recall a comment from my high school form teacher:

A man is like a watch, it's only valued when it is working

Agree?? At least I do...that's why I think no one should stop
not until the last breath.....

Nice Sharing~

2008-04-14T15:34:00.006+08:00

Just received this fowarded email from my sis-Yan, the three articles really touched my soul and very meaningful, unfortunately they are in chinese...anyway if I have spare time, the translated version (doggy one) will be up approximately 2 days after...in the mean time whoever can understand chinese can have a look at the articles first...

Carpal Tunnel Syndrome

2008-04-11T21:59:00.021+08:00

Wao!!! If i dint read this mail..I would never ever realise all these things are those that I do almost daily in front of my computer!!! Check it out man!!! Thank to the email from Jess.

Correct Postures

Here are some correct postures which should be used while using a computer to reduce stress and other ill effects:

Please take good care of your wrist while using the keyboard and mouse of your computer.

Long term repetitive action stress can lead to Carpal Tunnel.
You could end up going under a surgery that looks like this:

Follow the simple exercises listed
Carpal Tunnel Syndrome and Manual therapy
Exercises for relief from Carpal Tunnel Syndrome

While you are receiving treatment for Carpal Tunnel Syndrome regular exercise sessions can help your rapid recovery. We have included some photos and explanations of recommended exercises.
The following exercises may be prescribed by your healthcare provider in conjunction with Low Level Laser therapy. In the photos you will see below, the right wrist is the one being exercised. If your left wrist is affected, do the same exercises with the left hand.

When doing each of these exercises, the hand should be flexed until a sensation of stretching is felt in the arm. The position should be held for 10 to 15 seconds for each of 10 repetitions. Try to this set of exercises three times a day.
Exercises 1 and 2 flex and extend the hand and stretch the wrist. Bend the hand as shown in the photos and apply moderate pressure to it with the other hand.

Exercise 1 - Wrist Flexion Bend the hand being exercised backward (palm away from you ), as shown in the photos. With the fingers of the other hand, apply pressure.
(Click on photo for larger view)

Exercise 2 - Wrist Extension Bend the hand being exercised forward ( palm toward you ), as shown in the photos. With the fingers of the other hand, apply pressure.

Exercises 3 and 4 are similar to 1 and 2 except that an object, such as a pad provides the resistance to the hand, instead of your other hand.

Exercise 3 - Wrist Flexion against surface With your arm held vertically, press your hand, palm down, on a firm surface, as shown in the photo.

Exercise 4 - Wrist Extension against surface With your arm held vertically, press your hand, palm up, on a firm surface, as shown in the photo.

Exercises 5 and 6 involve the side to side range of motion of the hand.

Exercise 5 - (Radial Deviation) Place your hand palm downward. Grasp the fingers of the hand to be exercised with your other hand (as shown in the photo) and twist the hand toward you. Keep the hand horizontal.

Exercise 6 - (Ulnar Deviation) Place your hand palm downward. Grasp the fingers of the hand to be exercised with your other hand (as shown in the photo) and twist the hand away from you. Keep the hand horizontal.

How fast are you?

2008-04-11T09:10:00.005+08:00

This morning when I woke up from my bed, really have no mood to do anything and just surfing on the net and through a friend's msn message, I got this website...and I was fascinated by this website and I treated it was a some kind of game to me...haha...maybe i was too bored....anyway just wanna share with anyone of you who is as bored as me and tell me how fast you are...hahaha..thanks to mushroom for the link..hehe...

The following was my result (it was my best one at the moment):

214 points, so you achieved position 734942 of 1688409 on the ranking list

You type 288 characters per minute
You have 53 correct words and
you have 1 wrong words

53 words

Speed test

游子吟

2008-04-05T15:35:00.003+08:00

[作者：孟郊]

慈母手中线， (The thread and needles held in you hands)

游子身上衣。 (Sewing the clothes for me to bring along)

临行密密缝， (Trying your best to sew the best for me)

意恐迟迟归。 (Worrying I wouldnt be back early)

谁言寸草心， (We are just like little flower under your shine)

报得三春晖. (There is nothing we can do to pay back)

[注词释义]

　　游子：离家远游的人。
　　意恐：担心。
　　寸草：小草。寸草心：此处指游子的心。
　　三春晖：春天的阳光。这里比喻母爱。三春，初春、仲春、暮春，泛指整个春天。晖，阳光。

[简析]

　　这是一支亲切诚挚的母爱颂歌。题下作者自注“迎母溧上作”。孟郊一生穷愁潦倒，直到五十岁才得到溧阳县尉的卑微职位。此诗便是他居官溧阳时作。　　开头两句“慈母手中线，游子身上衣”，用“线”与“衣”两件极常见的东西将“慈母”与“游子”紧紧联系在一起，写出母子相依为命的骨肉感情。三、四句“临行密密缝，意恐迟迟归”，通过慈母为游子赶制出门衣服的动作和心理的刻画，深化这种骨肉之情。母亲千针万线“密密缝”是因为怕儿子“迟迟”难归。伟大的母爱正是通过日常生活中的细节自然地流露出来。前面四句采用白描手法，不作任何修饰，但慈母的形象真切感人。

　　最后两句“谁言寸草心，报得三春晖”，是作者直抒胸臆，对母爱作尽情的讴歌。这两句采用传统的比兴手法：儿女像区区小草，母爱如春天阳光。儿女怎能报答母爱于万一呢？悬绝的对比，形象的比喻，寄托着赤子对慈母发自肺腑的爱。　　这首诗艺术地再现了人所共感的平凡而又伟大的人性美，所以千百年来赢得了无数读者强烈的共鸣。直到清朝，溧阳有两位诗人又吟出了这样的诗句：“父书空满筐，母线萦我襦”（史骐生《写怀》），“向来多少泪，都染手缝衣”（彭桂《建初弟来都省亲喜极有感》），足见此诗给后人的深刻印象。

[游子感想]

有多少人能够了解，像我们这样的在海外留学游子的心情，
如果自己的国家能够一视同仁，能够体恤我们这些成绩永远平平的学生；
能够提供优良的教育水平，谁会离乡背井去到别人的国土上让人当二等公民看待。
你就认为，我们非常有钱，从中学就要念独中，到大学就到国外念书？？
从此就把祖国给遗忘？
你错了！！！
我们永远也不会把祖国给遗忘，我们永远爱这片大地，我们的家。。。
我们的家人，尤其是像是中所说的，母亲手中的针线，家人的唠叨，
多少人能了解我们这种游子的心情？？
有头发谁想当秃子呢？
对不起，亲爱的家人，知道你们想念我，我也一样，也许是最近心情起伏太大了，
请原谅我那不耐烦的语气。。。我会改的。。。

p/s: haha ..bare with my doggy translation though I've tried mybest

Earth Hour 2008

2008-03-27T21:52:00.006+08:00

I read about this news before I came back in Launceston (which was few months back), but as usual, most of you who know me well should know how forgetful I can be sometimes, so I really forgot about it...Luckily one of my friend sent me this link and now it reminds me again:

Date: 29th March 2008
Time: 20:00 (local time)
Duration: 1 hour
Event: Turn off all the electricity appliances and all lights (world wide event)

So here is the youtube link that my friend sent to me:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-qczUcQ-VjM

Why?

2008-03-25T13:24:00.002+08:00

Very funny theory but somehow I find it is true...check out this short clip which was posted by yowkien before...

MEN-- funny creatures

2008-03-24T11:56:00.003+08:00

After reading a forwarded email, then only I realised how difficult to please men in their relationship with women...How true is it?? I dont know but it is entirely up to you guys to justify...enjoy~ again remember to click on the picture to get the full screen view...

Malaysian-- Have some laughters..

2008-03-24T06:45:00.002+08:00

This is one email I received from my friend and it really did give me some laughter though I find it is abit racist...but who really cares about it?? haha...

p/s: Remember to click on the picture to get the full screen view. Enjoy~~

错过 . 珍惜 My lost & appreciation

2008-03-23T21:35:00.003+08:00

Because of your appearance, I met a good friend,
Because of your friendliness, I knew a close friend,
Because of your initiative, I was touched,
Because of your creativity, I love craft work now,
Because of your love, I learnt how to love others too,
Because of your leaving, I learnt how to stand up,
Because of your visit, I have those memory back,
Because of your thoughtfulness, I have my very best friend back.

I am very glad that you once walked into my life, though was not long, and I really appreciate that this relationship now has been sublimed to a different degree which won me back a bosom friend...It was really my lost, nevertheless if that never happened I would never grow up and I would never ever appreciate and of course never realised that how much I have taken that for granted...

After reading your blog, only I realised something that I have owed you since ever we met, separated and met again...a simple word but also a meaningful term and it was my pride that not easy to come out with that word; nonetheless I think I am no longer as stubborn as how I used to be, so here is the term: THANK YOU.

I know it may not mean lot to you but it does to me. Thanks for everything from the past til now so far, your thought, your courage, your help, your smile, they really brightened me and helped me alot. I know you'll be there whenever I need help, and same goes to me...you know who I am referring to after all, dont you? Thanks my friend, a bosom friend indeed...

p/s: 讨厌，真得有点想揍你，塞车就塞车啦，还说什么听歌喝汤啦，也太欠扁了吧？！？！

明天會更好 . Tomorrow a better day

2008-03-20T12:06:00.003+08:00

This is what I will talk to myself whenever I am down...I have very bad mood recently, probably because of the uncertainty and whatever bad luck that I've been though since the starting of the year...There were few times that I really couldn't take it and wanna give up...but I know at this stage it is very very irresponsible to do that and that's why I felt even worse since I dont have any drive to continue and I cannot pull myself out either...so this is what I will tell myself again and hopefully it is gonna work for this time...Tomorrow a better day!!!

曲：羅大佑
詞：羅大佑 / 張大春 / 許乃勝 / 李壽全 /
　　邱復生 / 張艾嘉 / 詹宏志

（蔡　琴）輕輕敲醒沉睡的心靈
　　　　　慢慢張開你的眼睛
（余　天）看那忙碌的世界是否依然
　　　　　孤獨地轉個不停
（蘇　芮）春風不解風情　吹動少年的心
（潘越雲）讓昨日臉上的淚痕
　　　　　隨記憶風乾了

（甄　妮）抬頭尋找天空的翅膀
　　　　　候鳥出現牠的影跡
（李建復）帶來遠處的飢荒無情的戰火
　　　　　依然存在的消息
（林慧萍）玉山白雪飄零　燃燒少年的心
（王芷蕾）使真情溶化成音符
　　　　　傾訴遙遠的祝福

（黃鶯鶯）唱出你的熱情　伸出你雙手
　　　　　讓我擁抱著你的夢
　　　　　讓我擁有你真心的面孔
（洪榮宏）讓我們的笑容
　　　　　充滿著青春的驕傲
　　　　　為明天獻出虔誠的祈禱

（陳淑樺）誰能不顧自己的家園
　　　　　拋開記憶中的童年
（金智娟）誰能忍心看那昨日的憂愁
　　　　　帶走我們的笑容
（王夢麟）青春不解紅塵　胭脂沾染了灰
（李佩菁）讓久違不見的淚水
　　　　　滋潤了你的面容
（費玉清）唱出你的熱情　伸出你雙手
　　　　　讓我擁抱著你的夢
　　　　　讓我擁有你真心的面孔
　　　　　讓我們的笑容
　　　　　充滿著青春的驕傲
　　　　　為明天獻出虔誠的祈禱

（齊　豫）輕輕敲醒沉睡的心靈
　　　　　慢慢張開你的眼睛
（鄭　怡）看那忙碌的世界是否依然
　　　　　孤獨地轉個不停
（江　蕙）日出喚醒清晨　大地光彩重生
（楊　林）讓和風拂出的音響
　　　　　譜成生命的樂章

（合　唱）唱出你的熱情　伸出你雙手
　　　　　讓我擁抱著你的夢
　　　　　讓我擁有你真心的面孔
　　　　　讓我們的笑容
　　　　　充滿著青春的驕傲
　　　　　讓我們期待明天會更好

（蘇　芮）唱出你的熱情　伸出你雙手
　　　　　讓我擁抱著你的夢
　　　　　讓我擁有你真心的面孔
　　　　　讓我們的笑容
　　　　　充滿著青春的驕傲
　　　　　讓我們期待
　　　　　明天會更好（齊秦和聲）

（余　天）唱出你的熱情　伸出你雙手
　　　　　讓我擁抱著你的夢
　　　　　讓我擁有你真心的面孔
　　　　　讓我們的笑容
　　　　　充滿著青春的驕傲
　　　　　讓我們期待
　　　　　明天會更好（蘇芮和聲）

（合　唱）唱出你的熱情　伸出你雙手
　　　　　讓我擁抱著你的夢
　　　　　讓我擁有你真心的面孔
　　　　　讓我們的笑容
　　　　　充滿著青春的驕傲
　　　　　讓我們期待明天會更好

心动

2008-03-18T18:42:00.002+08:00

“今天你都做了些什么呀？有没有想着我呀。。。”
“才不要告诉你，谁会想你呀？”
“那你现在在做些什么呀？”
“我不就在跟一个傻瓜通电话咯。。”

以上是我认为相当肉麻的一段对话，很明显的是一对刚热恋的情侣的对话。外人看是肉麻，他们却甜在心头，当然更不会觉得肉麻了。。曾几何时，我也曾经说过类似的肉麻话，当然那时的我也完全陶醉在其中，完全不会察觉自己其实已经有点不理智了。。因为那时的我已经心动了，而且是动到了心坎里，无时无刻都会觉得丝丝的甜，想着对方，猜想对方在做些什么，是不是也一样的想着自己。。。不停的想。。。电话一响起，就有说不完的话题，仿佛是像小学生刚从学校回来，向父母不断的炫耀自己当天所做过的，所经历过的事，诉苦自己一天的不幸。。。直到大家拿着听筒的手都冒汗了，直到大家都忘了换了多少次耳朵来继续这段对话，直到大家都躲到被窝时。。最后才依依不舍的放下话筒。。。很傻吧？但谁不曾那么傻过？而且相信当下的我们，都觉得自己傻得很可爱，很幸福。。。又有睡会去在意别人的眼光呢？那就是我认为爱情心动的感觉。。。

很遗憾的是，最近的我发觉，在这方面我已经开始发觉不到了心跳，更别说是心动了。。。出现在你面前的她是缘分的安排?或只是老天给你开的一个玩笑？或是她纯粹是你人生当中的一个路过者？当你信心满满，牵着她的手步入教堂把戒指给她带上的那一刻，你又是否可以信心满满，拍着胸口许下诺言，地老天荒，海枯石烂，无论富贵贫贱，生老病死？？

最近看见朋友部落格谈到结婚，有感而发，结婚虽是好事，流行也非坏事。。只是大家可曾真正了解结婚的意义，和当初那份最真挚心动的感觉？？

后记：人海茫茫，可以找到真正能让你心动的人确实不易。。。虽然我暂时以没了心跳，但也希望大家能好好珍惜这份心跳和心动的感觉，好好把握。。。

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